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sometimes i dont think its normal to feel this way,
but then i think, normal compared to who exactly?
i know we all get sad now and then,
i just want the now and thens to stop being so frequent.
my lifes unwraveling before me, and for the first time, i dont like what i see.
and im sick of people telling me "its not that bad, itll be fine" when in reality, thats relevant only to the person going through it.
if its bad to me, then its bad. its not going to get better because you would be ok with it, you know?
everyone keeps trying to lable my feelings, "youre depressed", "youre not depressed, its just a stressful time", "you should see someone", "youre fine, its normal"
ugh. normal.
i hate that word, yet i want nothing more than to feel like it again.
i wish people would stop judging my emotions, like they know me better than i do.
or like lableling them will make them go away, because apperantly, thats not the case.
im just alittle scared. alittle unprepared, and i hope luck is on my side.
The worst is that I feel myself pulling the wrong people in, and pushing the right people out.
but at times i dont feel like im getting wat i need from the people i need it from, instead im getting it from the people i swore id keep out.
i suppose that once you hit rock bottom theres no where to go but up, and i think i'll be there soon enough.
what a great thing to look forward to.
but then i think, normal compared to who exactly?
i know we all get sad now and then,
i just want the now and thens to stop being so frequent.
my lifes unwraveling before me, and for the first time, i dont like what i see.
and im sick of people telling me "its not that bad, itll be fine" when in reality, thats relevant only to the person going through it.
if its bad to me, then its bad. its not going to get better because you would be ok with it, you know?
everyone keeps trying to lable my feelings, "youre depressed", "youre not depressed, its just a stressful time", "you should see someone", "youre fine, its normal"
ugh. normal.
i hate that word, yet i want nothing more than to feel like it again.
i wish people would stop judging my emotions, like they know me better than i do.
or like lableling them will make them go away, because apperantly, thats not the case.
im just alittle scared. alittle unprepared, and i hope luck is on my side.
The worst is that I feel myself pulling the wrong people in, and pushing the right people out.
but at times i dont feel like im getting wat i need from the people i need it from, instead im getting it from the people i swore id keep out.
i suppose that once you hit rock bottom theres no where to go but up, and i think i'll be there soon enough.
what a great thing to look forward to.