au revoir
so, it finally happened: ed went to birmingham today. it felt sadder than i had expected, standing there on the pavement, kissing and waving each other goodbye. i felt a bit like crying, but i didn't want to cry and make a big deal out of it in front of his family, so i tried not to, and that made me want to even more, and - you know. (incidentally, i feel really accepted by the szekelys, which is awesome because... i like them a lot, i guess.) and now, there he is, living in a different city - living in the midlands, no less. i have two weeks of reading and packing ahead of me, while he does the whole freshers thing. it's odd, although probably the best thing for me, given the amount of reading i ought to be doing. last night was wonderful, though, obviously. i felt very aware of our feelings and our bodies and things like that. we watched everyone says i love you, which was perfect for us - a woody allen feelgood movie! anyway. i really hope things go well for him over the next fortnight.
sometimes i worry that so much of this journal is about ed. i do have other concerns, reflections, etc. in life, of course. but i don't really feel like writing about anything else today. it doesn't seem so important.
sometimes i worry that so much of this journal is about ed. i do have other concerns, reflections, etc. in life, of course. but i don't really feel like writing about anything else today. it doesn't seem so important.