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Okay, I'm kind of freaking out.
I just got my packet from MECA with the schedules and information and everything for Early College this summer. I started getting upset when I read the opening letter where it talked about taking a quick tour of Portland and the MECA buildings. That should be fine, right? Well not if I struggle to just fucking walk around my house. And thats just the first page. I want this more than anything right now but I don't know how it'll be possible in my current condition. There are classes from 9:00-5:00 every day plus a required 10 hours of open studio time a week and..ugh, its just so much. Just the idea of having to walk around that much scares me. I just want to get some energy back and maybe lessen the pain a little bit.
I think i'm going back to school soon. I just had a talk with my mom and she thinks I need to get back into a routine and see if I can just make it through the day so I can judge if i'll be able to do early college.
I just can't give up on this. I can't.
I just got my packet from MECA with the schedules and information and everything for Early College this summer. I started getting upset when I read the opening letter where it talked about taking a quick tour of Portland and the MECA buildings. That should be fine, right? Well not if I struggle to just fucking walk around my house. And thats just the first page. I want this more than anything right now but I don't know how it'll be possible in my current condition. There are classes from 9:00-5:00 every day plus a required 10 hours of open studio time a week and..ugh, its just so much. Just the idea of having to walk around that much scares me. I just want to get some energy back and maybe lessen the pain a little bit.
I think i'm going back to school soon. I just had a talk with my mom and she thinks I need to get back into a routine and see if I can just make it through the day so I can judge if i'll be able to do early college.
I just can't give up on this. I can't.