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ahh um.. weird. and thats all there is to it.
today, i was talking with my sister and i was giving HER guy advice. isnt she supposed to give it to me? i mean, the stereotypical older sister.. is supposed to give advice to the younger sister, but i guess it doesnt really work out like that. its just so weird you know, to actually talk to my sister because for most of my life, i have never confided in her at all or had a REAL conversation (real as in like heart-felt-ish) and today i did and i realised how much i was going to miss her. :( i guess ive always kind of seen her as my younger sister. im always the one standing up for her, taking her side, leading the way, giving advice and now that shes leaving, that im leaving, im going to actually really truly miss her and i never thought i would i guess. we never actually got a long very well.. until this year. and today... she told me that shed always wanted to be like me and i said why would you want to be like me when ive always wanted to be like you? WEIRD i am the MOST screwed up person i have ever met and my perfect sister.. wants to be like me.. when i was always trying to be more like her. and all i ever heard was well your sister did this and that and ahhhh. and this year ive just started to i dunno break away from that and be more like i want to be and its confusing to me really, it threw me off. so yeah thats all.
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today, i was talking with my sister and i was giving HER guy advice. isnt she supposed to give it to me? i mean, the stereotypical older sister.. is supposed to give advice to the younger sister, but i guess it doesnt really work out like that. its just so weird you know, to actually talk to my sister because for most of my life, i have never confided in her at all or had a REAL conversation (real as in like heart-felt-ish) and today i did and i realised how much i was going to miss her. :( i guess ive always kind of seen her as my younger sister. im always the one standing up for her, taking her side, leading the way, giving advice and now that shes leaving, that im leaving, im going to actually really truly miss her and i never thought i would i guess. we never actually got a long very well.. until this year. and today... she told me that shed always wanted to be like me and i said why would you want to be like me when ive always wanted to be like you? WEIRD i am the MOST screwed up person i have ever met and my perfect sister.. wants to be like me.. when i was always trying to be more like her. and all i ever heard was well your sister did this and that and ahhhh. and this year ive just started to i dunno break away from that and be more like i want to be and its confusing to me really, it threw me off. so yeah thats all.
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