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So, I've always had this tendency in me to be a complete flirt and a "player" while I'm in relationships, but it's not even like that anymore with Katie. It's like, knowing that I lost her for those 3 months over the summer, and knowing how my life completely fell apart, makes me want to treat her like she really deserves. That girl makes me, for serious. She's the only thing that holds me together, and I feel like such a fucking idiot for how I've treated her. I've always known she was the one for me, since we first got together in like December of '03, but I had something to prove. I had to challenge myself with other girls to make me feel like I wasn't too into it. But so what if I'm into it? I want to give her my everything and my all. I can't feel as comfortable, as myself, as perfect as I do with Katie, with anyone else. I think I've got all this figured out. Since I'm graduating early this year, which is basically how it's going down, and since she's so close to being 18, we can have everything we've ever wanted. Why risk that for anyone/thing else? I'm not messing up this time. I won't let myself.