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how weird is weird? what is weird? what is normal?
When are they going to invent something that records your thoughts so you don't even have to type. Lied. So before that, they need to invent something where you talk and something records your words. Would I take the time to read it after I said it? or would it just be there.
I'd like to think that my thoughts are interesting enough that someone decade from now will read through my thoughts, or my word-scripts, and attempt to understand what my intense brain is thinking. Are my thoughts important? I'd like to think they are.
Dad's really pushing this belief in God thing, God being something greater. He says I NEED to believe. Here's my thought. If I believe that we are all so unimportant that we live and die and no one notices, what's the point of believing in something. We're science. We live. We destroy. and We die. That's all we get. While we're here, we meet people, make memories, and try to live and be as entertaining to ourselves as we can be. I want to believe that I will one day be famous. Does praying to someone who I don't believe in, is that really going to help me? Probs not. I think the importance of praying is to understand that in order to make something happen, it must be on your mind 100% of the time.
I think there is a possibility that religion, Christianity for example, is just a basis for people to live a good life. "good" over bad, robbing people, and being mean. I think I would enjoy dissecting this religion and focusing on what religion actually does for people. That would be an interesting thesis. An outside look at christianity and the human race. To do this, I don't think I really need a firm understanding of the religion, but an understanding of how communities interact. How they survive, and then look at how religion enhances this ability to survive. Because, let's face it, Christianity has been around, as most religions have, for a real long time.
So. what's my interest with the real world? I don't know. And since this surgery, I'd like to see my life as my first rebirth. Like I get it all now. As if that's possible, but I get it at a much higher degree than I ever have, which I like. I feel more intelligent whether or not I am. One thing I would like to work on is seeing myself from other people's prospectives. One instance is when Loren and I went to the baseball game with my dad and he smoked a cigarette out the door and I snuck hits of the cig. Well. From Loren's perspective, why did I do that. As I understand Loren he's simple and he's now, so I think that me doing that shows my persistancy for people to see me a certain way. I'm glad I quit smoking. It's more me. I'm not sure who ME is, but I will find her. Also, Loren is not an overthinker. I am an overthinker, so I analyze everything. Or at least I think I do.
3rd Rock from the sun, I like the idea of understanding the human race. It's an idea that I personally think it's interesting to understand, that humans are really weird. I am also a believer that every personality trait is set on a spectrum, and everyone sort of falls on different spots based on genitics and situations we find ourselves in. This is why some people are crazy, and some people are really smart.
There's something about the greatest thinkers of our time.
I wish I liked to run, and I wish I liked to read.
Or I wish I had more time to run, and more time to read.
These are two activities I would like to see myself do more of. Check back in a few weeks on that.
Now that I've expressed myself creatively, I think it's time to be academic.
oxoxs.
When are they going to invent something that records your thoughts so you don't even have to type. Lied. So before that, they need to invent something where you talk and something records your words. Would I take the time to read it after I said it? or would it just be there.
I'd like to think that my thoughts are interesting enough that someone decade from now will read through my thoughts, or my word-scripts, and attempt to understand what my intense brain is thinking. Are my thoughts important? I'd like to think they are.
Dad's really pushing this belief in God thing, God being something greater. He says I NEED to believe. Here's my thought. If I believe that we are all so unimportant that we live and die and no one notices, what's the point of believing in something. We're science. We live. We destroy. and We die. That's all we get. While we're here, we meet people, make memories, and try to live and be as entertaining to ourselves as we can be. I want to believe that I will one day be famous. Does praying to someone who I don't believe in, is that really going to help me? Probs not. I think the importance of praying is to understand that in order to make something happen, it must be on your mind 100% of the time.
I think there is a possibility that religion, Christianity for example, is just a basis for people to live a good life. "good" over bad, robbing people, and being mean. I think I would enjoy dissecting this religion and focusing on what religion actually does for people. That would be an interesting thesis. An outside look at christianity and the human race. To do this, I don't think I really need a firm understanding of the religion, but an understanding of how communities interact. How they survive, and then look at how religion enhances this ability to survive. Because, let's face it, Christianity has been around, as most religions have, for a real long time.
So. what's my interest with the real world? I don't know. And since this surgery, I'd like to see my life as my first rebirth. Like I get it all now. As if that's possible, but I get it at a much higher degree than I ever have, which I like. I feel more intelligent whether or not I am. One thing I would like to work on is seeing myself from other people's prospectives. One instance is when Loren and I went to the baseball game with my dad and he smoked a cigarette out the door and I snuck hits of the cig. Well. From Loren's perspective, why did I do that. As I understand Loren he's simple and he's now, so I think that me doing that shows my persistancy for people to see me a certain way. I'm glad I quit smoking. It's more me. I'm not sure who ME is, but I will find her. Also, Loren is not an overthinker. I am an overthinker, so I analyze everything. Or at least I think I do.
3rd Rock from the sun, I like the idea of understanding the human race. It's an idea that I personally think it's interesting to understand, that humans are really weird. I am also a believer that every personality trait is set on a spectrum, and everyone sort of falls on different spots based on genitics and situations we find ourselves in. This is why some people are crazy, and some people are really smart.
There's something about the greatest thinkers of our time.
I wish I liked to run, and I wish I liked to read.
Or I wish I had more time to run, and more time to read.
These are two activities I would like to see myself do more of. Check back in a few weeks on that.
Now that I've expressed myself creatively, I think it's time to be academic.
oxoxs.