can you say chaos?
Doing well today. getting things done. went to church this morning with T&T. it was nice. got to have some free time alone before mass started and the free donuts and coffee aren't that bad either. spent a lot of time praying. more than usual. a lot of things to talk over with God. I know He hears me and it helps to know that.
Got an interview at the Deli for tomm. at 2. sounds good. :)
Lots of stress the last few days. So much anxiety and depression and hopelessness. things will get better, they have to. trying to stay positive...
Got a letter from Paul today. I haven't laughed that hard or smiled so much in a while. sooo good. words on paper can hold so much. they are so powerful. i miss him. god i miss him.
I close my eyes and i can almost hear him. fuck. it hurts.
Can't get depressed. Overall, its a good day. Going to a meeting tonite with Tonya. i'm lucky to have her. shit. i don't know what i'd do without her.
Half the time i don't even know what the fuck i'm doing. well, i guess the next right thing....... thats gotta be worth somethin.
Got an interview at the Deli for tomm. at 2. sounds good. :)
Lots of stress the last few days. So much anxiety and depression and hopelessness. things will get better, they have to. trying to stay positive...
Got a letter from Paul today. I haven't laughed that hard or smiled so much in a while. sooo good. words on paper can hold so much. they are so powerful. i miss him. god i miss him.
I close my eyes and i can almost hear him. fuck. it hurts.
Can't get depressed. Overall, its a good day. Going to a meeting tonite with Tonya. i'm lucky to have her. shit. i don't know what i'd do without her.
Half the time i don't even know what the fuck i'm doing. well, i guess the next right thing....... thats gotta be worth somethin.