i don't always feel lucky but i'm smart enough to try
another lonely holiday season.
i pray it shall be the last. i am in need of friends, support. AA is a must. i pray Lord, that you please help me, Jake, Angie and Marsh through this. i pray for your strength and blessing. My heart and prayers are with Paul, please God, please look at the good in him, allow him to continue his faith within me and to not give up on life, family, and myself. I believe one day we can find happiness, please allow me not to be afraid of change or the awkwardness and uncomfortableness that sometimes comes with it. I believe. This is my holiday wish. This is what I ask for, for Christmas. i ask for your help, i know only you can save me. I give myself over to you, i am in your hands.
The next week will be so hard. depressing. stay with us and show us your will. I look to my faith right now to save me. To save me, my love, my friends. I will try to stay in high hopes and good faith this season, this new year. I will do the best i can, please acknowledge that.
I cannot allow myself to torture myself any longer. I am ready.
i pray it shall be the last. i am in need of friends, support. AA is a must. i pray Lord, that you please help me, Jake, Angie and Marsh through this. i pray for your strength and blessing. My heart and prayers are with Paul, please God, please look at the good in him, allow him to continue his faith within me and to not give up on life, family, and myself. I believe one day we can find happiness, please allow me not to be afraid of change or the awkwardness and uncomfortableness that sometimes comes with it. I believe. This is my holiday wish. This is what I ask for, for Christmas. i ask for your help, i know only you can save me. I give myself over to you, i am in your hands.
The next week will be so hard. depressing. stay with us and show us your will. I look to my faith right now to save me. To save me, my love, my friends. I will try to stay in high hopes and good faith this season, this new year. I will do the best i can, please acknowledge that.
I cannot allow myself to torture myself any longer. I am ready.