*sigh*
Greetings
Blergh. I think James and I are 'officaly over'... though this afternoon he still called me his 'signifgant other'.
I had a fight with him on the phone yesterday morning, in wich I totally over reacted to something he said.
By 11pm last night I'd apologized. We met up today, he seemed alot better (he was 'sick' yesterday) I took
him a dvd to watch and the nicest vegetarian lunch I could scrounge up. Thins were a little awkward to begin
with, we sat far apart on the couch, but eventully ende dup snuggling (as you do). At some point Eddie rang him
to ask him over to her place for a swim (she lives on the north shore, with a little beach out the backdoor) He
asked me "were you keen to go for a swim at Eds later on?" .. it caught me off gaurd and I was a little disappointed,
so I shurgged, and said "rightio". He said he'd call her back in an hour or so after we'd watched the movie.
When the movie ended, he said he'd rather just spend time with me, and we came back to my place to swim in my pool.
Floating around with him was wicked fun. Between the playful rosuisings, pool kisses and cuddles, I felt like I had the Jack to my Meg back, temporaily at least. Its 9 days until he 'moves' ... so I think things are in the cooling off stage. But its still good to have that someone to be able to fool around with, and lay and cuddle with.
, there was alot of that going on. Only, with less clothes, no microphone... and in a pool.
Physically, I cant stop finding him attractive, I never will. He has unconvetional good looks that cant be matched. When he came up out of the water today, his hair, because its longish, was infront of his face, and his swollen bottom lip was poking out, in the forground I just looked at the bone structure in his shoulders... and his smell.
Physical attatchement needn't be overcome.. just emotional.
My goal now is to build up my own life, so I'm not so focuses on him all he time.
Onto the next! right? ......... RIGHT!?
Blergh. I think James and I are 'officaly over'... though this afternoon he still called me his 'signifgant other'.
I had a fight with him on the phone yesterday morning, in wich I totally over reacted to something he said.
By 11pm last night I'd apologized. We met up today, he seemed alot better (he was 'sick' yesterday) I took
him a dvd to watch and the nicest vegetarian lunch I could scrounge up. Thins were a little awkward to begin
with, we sat far apart on the couch, but eventully ende dup snuggling (as you do). At some point Eddie rang him
to ask him over to her place for a swim (she lives on the north shore, with a little beach out the backdoor) He
asked me "were you keen to go for a swim at Eds later on?" .. it caught me off gaurd and I was a little disappointed,
so I shurgged, and said "rightio". He said he'd call her back in an hour or so after we'd watched the movie.
When the movie ended, he said he'd rather just spend time with me, and we came back to my place to swim in my pool.
Floating around with him was wicked fun. Between the playful rosuisings, pool kisses and cuddles, I felt like I had the Jack to my Meg back, temporaily at least. Its 9 days until he 'moves' ... so I think things are in the cooling off stage. But its still good to have that someone to be able to fool around with, and lay and cuddle with.
, there was alot of that going on. Only, with less clothes, no microphone... and in a pool.
Physically, I cant stop finding him attractive, I never will. He has unconvetional good looks that cant be matched. When he came up out of the water today, his hair, because its longish, was infront of his face, and his swollen bottom lip was poking out, in the forground I just looked at the bone structure in his shoulders... and his smell.
Physical attatchement needn't be overcome.. just emotional.
My goal now is to build up my own life, so I'm not so focuses on him all he time.
Onto the next! right? ......... RIGHT!?