this girls, a PERSON you know.
You know what...?
I knew it had to end by new years
and now it has begun its decline
I feel...... pathetic.
He probaly isnt even giving it a second thought
I've been thinking about it non-stop for a few days now and thats what makes me hurt even more.
I've cried myself to sleep 4 times this week.
One night I cried so hard I felt like I'd left my body, it felt surreal.
My tummy muscles ached, my eyes stung and my head felt like it was in another reality.
I really felt so pathetic.
I talked to him for 2 minutes in the morning on msn.
Then spent the next 30 slumped naked in the corner of the shower shaking and crying like a spineless reliant 17 year old with no life to live.
My mood fluctuates between 'no worries' and wanting to rip something in half.
Tis the season to be merry.
Or clinicaly depressed and uncable of being merry... either one works
I knew it had to end by new years
and now it has begun its decline
I feel...... pathetic.
He probaly isnt even giving it a second thought
I've been thinking about it non-stop for a few days now and thats what makes me hurt even more.
I've cried myself to sleep 4 times this week.
One night I cried so hard I felt like I'd left my body, it felt surreal.
My tummy muscles ached, my eyes stung and my head felt like it was in another reality.
I really felt so pathetic.
I talked to him for 2 minutes in the morning on msn.
Then spent the next 30 slumped naked in the corner of the shower shaking and crying like a spineless reliant 17 year old with no life to live.
My mood fluctuates between 'no worries' and wanting to rip something in half.
Tis the season to be merry.
Or clinicaly depressed and uncable of being merry... either one works