The edge on your affection..
I am the proud new owner of a Jim Morrison LJ Icon.
check it out up there baby! ^.
Today was kind of, horrible, but I didn't feel like crap. If that even makes sense. I look foward to coming home in the afternoons, for a bit of time by myself, without having to worry about the fact that I have someone to talk to at all times so I dont look like a 'loner'. That happened today, I can never be satisfied with the comapny I've got at school.
I came home and I did all of my art questions, my drama assignment and ancient History work.
I got a sheet today, asking me to elcect 2 lectures to attend at the southern cross university open day. I put down Arts/Humanites/Media as my first preferance, and Social Scienes as my second. The thought of not going to university scares me, even though it'd probaly suit me better, I need that constant intellectual stimulation. To feel ...... safe.?
The boy got contacted today by UNSW... he has rural engerneering invterview. He'll ace it, I know he will. He will get into the top University in the state, ace his hard arse corse and then look in the papers HSC time next year, find my name, see my low UAI and shudder at the fact that he used to date that stupid girl. I don't understand why my fear of not being 'smart' is so strong.
I am going to his end of HSC party Staruday night, as snow white. He said he wanted me to come over early. I took this as 'I want to spend some time with you , just us, since I havn't for almost 2 weeks' ... but he just wnated me to help him with his costume. Hmph. I feel grumpy. *Angry Teggles face*
I have to be at school by 8am tomorrow for the voting of new head of the student body St Vincent de Pauls presdient. I'm not running, but as a member, I'm voting. I hate democracy. Why do we need a 'leader' for a charitable student body?
I think we are having another training weekend soon on how to lead at the camps for disadvatged kids. Its always great fun.
I'm scared/excited/uncertain about the future...