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[_insanityxbrk_]

I miss you so much right now. I need you more than ever. I wish I could just talk to you one last time and maybe I could get things straightened out in my mind. Everything is so confusing right now, and I know that if you were here you could help me. I wonder what you would say to me now. I wonder if you would be proud, or disappointed. How would you feel? What would you say to me in the hospital? Would you forgive me for loving him? I need a male's perspective right now. Other than Dave's. . and well, it seems like there really isn't anyone else who is so "thrilled" into helping me. I wish I could get one more hug from you. I wish I could hear you say you love me again. It's so hard without you here. You meant so much to me. I'm sorry for those few stupid fights we used to get into. I'm sorry for not being the daughter I should have been. Please forgive me for getting myself into this situation. I didn't mean for my life to end up like this. I hope you'd understand. I miss you, dad. I really do. I'd give anything to hear you say you love me.

Braylon- stay strong. . please. You can do this. I love you.
David- oh my God. I don't think there's enough words in this world to describe how thankful I am to have found you. Seriously. I wouldn't have made it through these past nine months without you. Yeah, we had our difficulties, and situations, but we got through them. And I'm so happy for that. Thank you so much for being there for me, thank you for staying with me. I love you so much.
Kris- Thanks. We can do this, right?
Grant- Thank. . you know why.
Jay- . . . I don't know what to say.