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so i'm not a Fall Out Boy kind of person. i like some of their stuff, but i'm surely not obsessed.
but for some damn reason, i am CRAZY about "a little less sixteen candles, a little more touch me".
and i can't explain it!
it's just so darn catchy!
so..
i have a routine now
for my weekends
it's pretty sweet:
Friday nights Josh usually works from 3-10:30
so i go spend the night at Danielle's house
and then she usually doesn't work until about 6pm saturday
so i leave her house and go to Josh's
because he doesn't work saturdays
i go home around midnight
and then on sunday
Josh and Danielle BOTH work
so i sit home
and intend on cleaning my room,
doing homework,
gettin a jump on laundry..
but......
i end up sittin here on the computer and gettin distracted
and i don't clean my room
and let it just pile up
and i never have anything to wear
because i decided not to do laundry
and my homework is half done at best
because i started at 10pm.
it's a beautiful cycle, really.
i have to go to the chiropractor some time this week
there is a place on my back
that randomly goes numb
and my mom goes "oh we'll just go get you adjusted!"
i guess i have "something out of place"
but seriously
i hate gettin adjusted... it hurts!
but i'm sick of being numb.
so i'll go.
Friday there isn't school-
yay!
so i'm going out with my mommy for the day
lots of stuff we're doing:
going to the outlet mall
to get:
shorts/capri's
shirts
jeans
sunglasses
earrings
and whatever else i like! heh
my mommy spoils me
we are then going to get my belly button peirced!
and you see,
i planned on getting this done
but since my dad said i could
i haven't made an effort to GO and do it
until Josh was lookin at my belly button yesterday
and i said something about getting it pierced
and he got excited
(he likes piercings and tattoos like me)
so i decided
thats a good enough reason for me to finally do it
so i'm gonna do it finally
Josh's birthday is in about 2 weeks
and for his birthday
i'm buying him a gift card to get his cartilage pierced
he wants it
so i'll buy it
mmhmm
i am also getting my hair done
trim it a bit
because the ends are like DEAD.
and some subtle highlights
i'm sick of just straight shit brown..
i need some dimension!
lets see.. what else am i doin..?
tomorrow Josh is driving my mom to Rochester Hills
so she can get more of the jewelry stuff she sells
she won't drive there alone
so she asked him to take her!
of coarse i'm going
but it'll be interesting how Josh is with my mom
they'll be in front chattin ya know.
heh, i love him so much.
oh yeah!
after much negociating and promises and me bein pissy
my dad said i can go up north with Josh!
i'm so pumped
we're leavin Friday (May 26th) right after school
drivin up
and not leaving until Monday morning (Josh's 19th birthday!)
i was also given permission to spend the night at his house
the night of his graduation party.
which is sawwweeeet too!
up all night, hot tub, fireworks, fooooood galore, sleepin in
it's gonna be awesome
things are goin awesome at the moment.
nothing extravagent
nothing too lame
just.. good.
i have no idea why i've been writing in this lately.
maybe it's because i was reading my old journals from greatestjournal.com
and from last year
and i wish i had written more
so i could remember shit
and it lets me know dates
and when shit happened
so
i'm gonna update more.
i always someone reads this
i know Danielle does
and sometimes Ryan after it being up for 2 weeks
but
it's okay
no one cares about what i'm up to anyways
Ryan is the only friend i have kept from Fenton
funny, huh?
oh yeah
"The Great Gatsby"
can basically go screw itself
i'm so sick of this book
it can go die now
with all of its nonsense and what not
i mean what the fuck
Myrtle dies
because Daisy fuckin ran her over with a car!
sorry if i ruined it
but like come on
who does that?
whatever.
i am also obsessed with Beautiful Love by The Afters
in case you all were wondering
it makes me think of Taylor
and something else
i just don't know what
but it gives me this... feeling
of... memory?
maybe
i can't quite tell
memory of what i'm not sure
it's like.. a feeling of "i've been here before"
sooo fuckin weird
speaking of weird
i had a dream last night
that Emily Gainer and i were fighting over the shirts we have of each others'
no idea why
i saw her mom today at WalMart
i miss Emily. sniffle..
"maybe our love will catch like fire,
as it burns through me...."
i am also obsessed with "life ain't always beautiful"
it's so true
and hits home
and just.. works
when it's late at night
and i'm driving home at my leisure
goin bout 30 on the back roads
and i'm sittin kinda slumped down in my seat
all comfortable and what not
i listen to Gary Allen singin "no life ain't always beautiful.. tears will fall sometimes.
life ain't always beautiful.. but it's a beautiful ride"
not too loud
not too soft
and i just zone out
and its just a straight and clear for the entire 2 mile stretch of Faussett road
it makes me feel so good
i don't know why
i've done it twice now
once on the way home from driving Josh Weeks home friday night
and once when i was coming home from.. gosh i don't even know where
but when i was on my home from Josh's
i was feeling good
we had talked about how much happier we are now
he likes his new lifestyle
and how much more outgoing he is
and the memories hes making...
and how i love my new boyfriend
and i love having my own life now
and how i have a group of friends
and i can be with Danielle more
i was just.. really positive
it wasn't anything ground breaking
we didn't fight
we just had this.. mutual moment.
we were happy. to be apart. but not hate each other
all at the same time
life isn't always beautiful
it's bumpy
and has ups and downs
but sometimes
the whole ride there is what makes it all beautiful at the end
getting to my boyfriend now wasn't easy
bumpy, a lot of downs, a lot of ruts
but in the end
i got here
i got to the end of this ride
there will be more
but the ride with Josh Weeks has ended
and the end result, being with Josh Cameron,
has finally come.
and trust me;
he's beautiful.