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Today I had a good day...before I went to the park.
Went to the dentist,then to a Fleemarket in Rahway with my mom.It was nice,I'll admit.Got some shit,ok.Came back around 1,causing me to meet up with Angela and the plan was to hang out with Mick around 2-3:30 where we'd then meet up with Cliff at 3:30.Mick wasn't picking up,Angela had some stick up her ass at moments,though we hung out with Cliff..Well I think Cliff hates me...
..I finally got a call from Mick,blah blah blah long story short I told them I was at KP and whatever.So I didn't actually expect him to get Wade,Butch,Chuck,and himself over there..Danielle and Nick said some green van asked if they knew a Natalie...So they drove to the other side of KP,asked Angela and Cliff who then yelled out Mick was there.So I ride over there and we start talking (note:First time meeting Wade and Butch in person)So yea yea,etc.Ugh other shit happened;not really important..
I feel so guilty.What the fuck is my purpose on this fuckass planet.To make people feel better about themselve?/worst?To fucking please people causing to hurt my friends?To be mocked at,be humiliated,and used by?I hate this place.I can't cry anymore,I think I wasted it up.The past two days I think about it,and it's like..I haven't cryed.Odd,I have been feeling very depressed,cynical,and as if I want to kill someone.In the past week,I've hated school ever so much.I'm doing fine gradwise,but I just hate it.I swear,I wish I could get out of here.
Now I fucking have to see my dad tomorrow.Fucking asshole.