robb!!!!

[_indifferent]

my cousin's husband rob died today. i feel so bad! i knew he was sick, but i didnt know he was THAT sick. i had THEEE biggest crush on him... i still remember amanda's wedding. its so upsetting becase i was just talking to amanda at nanas funeral in august. amanda was always very nice to me, but it was always "little kid nice". at nana's funeral she actually opened up to me, less as a "kid to adult" relationship and more as equals. but anyway, she was talking about rob alot and i told her that i had the biggest crush on him when i was little. she laughed a lot and thats where our closeness began. she also asked if she could tell him because it would "cheer him up". i thoughtthat was the cutest thing ever. anyway... its really upsetting that he had to die at such a young age and im so upset for amanda. he was a real part of the family, not just an "in-law" to us. so may he rest in peace.

on the brighter side.. i have a 3 page paper to write, a 300 page book to read, and a chem test to study for :).