therapeutic
i'm here at jenny's, and as you can see its 4:30 in the morning. we just had a like 2 hour long conversation about love. about people we've loved, and things we've loved and just how many goddamn things we have "loved and lost". and it just, sucks. can i EVER just be happy with someone? its just one of those things you cant picture doing. i just cant picture myself ever being in a good relationship with anyone. and the one time i even came close i just screwed stuff up for myself. its like the whole "gods plan" thing is all a crock of shit, and im just a plain UNLUCKY person.
some people just have everything going for them, and i have come to realize that i am not one of those people. im mediocre at everything. im mediocre in school, family, looks, talents, friends, and then im just plain HORRIBLE at love. why cant i be GOOD at ANYTHING?!
this entry is so fucking dramatic, i cant even be good at "lj"ing!!
i love you all [even though im not good at it].
some people just have everything going for them, and i have come to realize that i am not one of those people. im mediocre at everything. im mediocre in school, family, looks, talents, friends, and then im just plain HORRIBLE at love. why cant i be GOOD at ANYTHING?!
this entry is so fucking dramatic, i cant even be good at "lj"ing!!
i love you all [even though im not good at it].