Feb 22, 2006 16:58
Well i'm finally updating right now... there has a lot happened since i updated last and i don't know if i can remember it all but i will try...
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i finally met the wonderful Robbie Mullins i got asked for my phone number by a 17 year old and i rejected him, i have been stuck in the middle between a lot of people, i have been to court to testify, i got baptised (spell?) and saved, i have just recently came back in contact with Scott, and i feel like i am destined to die alone.
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i feel horrible about the situation with Robbie and all of the girls. i do not know what to say about that. but i would greatly appreciate it if i wouldn't be put in the middle and be talked about. i have done nothing with robbie and nothing will ever happen.
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but i think think it is funny how someone had to add me in there when i was and am only in the robbie situation because i am trying to help my friends out. i just feel like people can't stop gossiping. yeah i know people who read this will probably be like "well you do it too so you have no reason to be saying that" but i don't go around pulling crap out of my butt and try and ruin peoople's lives. i usually tell someone that people are talking behind their backs and then try and be their friend. that is one thing that absolutely kills me.
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i don't think there ever be somone who will even like me more than a friend. every guy has something negative to say about me. it's not like their oppinion matters to me but it's like they can even find something wrong about me. it just makes me want to bust out crying and really puts my self esteem even lower than it is. i don't know what to do but just face that i will never meet a guy that will like me back.
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well i know my update was kind of emotional but that's how i feel and if you don't like it eiher get over it or leave it alone.
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Steph you are my best friend in the world and you are the only person i can tell everything to without you judging me. you are the bestest friend that anyone could ask for.
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Please comment me and tell me how you feel about my update, me as a person, and anything that you want to tell me.