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This week has been the weirdest ever. On Sunday, Justin invited me to go to the band concert on Tuesday. It started at 7, so I could go(i babysit until 6). I was so excited, he never invites me to his concerts, usually i have to ask him to bring me. i know, im a dork. but things had been going really good between us. so tuesday, Justin drove me and Lauren to Lauren's house. we chilled for a bit with rachael, and then Fil and Kevin(lauren's bf) came over. we watched Brother Bear, and then around 6:15 Fil and Kevin left. Raye drove us to the school at 7, and we watched the band concert.
it was over at like, 8 and Justin drove me home. he hung out for a while, and then he left around 9:30.
wednesday=gay. all day justin was being weird, or so i thought..idk, i was just being stupid and thinking that. we got in a huge fight at like, 9:45 and i had a panic attack...
thursday, i slept in and went into school at 10. saw justin, and he flipped out on me about the night before. i walked away cuz i didnt want to cry in school. This was at about 11:16-11:21(in between my periods 6/8 & 9/11). i didnt talk to him again until friday night at about 12:45 am. he was in hershey park all day with band.
we told each other what went on, i freaked, it was horrible. but we agreed to see each other saturday morning, and he picked me up at 9:30.
we went to the park, sat, talked, cried, and two hours later, decided we should just be friends. first he decided we weren't going to break up, but then it was only a one sided relationship..he didnt want to be with me. so we were just friends. he had to be home at 1, so we had an hour and a half. we went to the mall. yes, Justin Taylor and I went to the mall as friends. it was so weird. but good, we did well, i guess. then he offered to bring me and lauren to ashley's party around 2:30.
so he dropped he off at lauren's at 1, then came and pickd up back up at 2:15. yes, my "ex boyfriend" did that. lol. we went to ashley's for a bit, and then Raye picked us up and we went to see Mean Girls. Me and Lauren have been planning to see that for weeks. it was soo good, really funny. then we went to Barnes and Nobles and then home. we were going to go back to ashley's, but Mrs. Graham said no. lauren passed out at 10:30, i went to bed at 12, then woke up and left at 8:30.
yeah, so i don't think Justin and I are really over, just a break I think, and he told me that if we are friends for a while, we're gonna get back together. and Jus has never lied to me, and he respects me, so i believe him. I just hope we are best friends, and we can maintain that, unlike previous relationships. we seemed to do good for the hour and a half we spent being friends, so we're gonna be fine. yeah, i'm upset about it, but i have confidence in our love.
fran