i really need your advice

Feb 06, 2005 22:38

i'm just going to say it all. i need advice. well, no i dont but i feel better venting it to a stupid livejournal. It's so hard to talk to any person about this. I hate my dad so much. Plain and simple. It sounds so generic but i dont even care anymore. I've delt with this all my life and i'm not going to cry about it and let it affect the way i am towards people but it eats at me. It really does. My whole family is different. My brother is so angry.He's angry all the time. Liams alright. He almost just blocks it out of his head. My mother is a controlling bitch for lack of a better term. She wont let me do anything. It's the little things she does that makes me so angry. The "make my bed" or "watch your brothers all day" makes me so angry. i understand how hard it is for her. I know my dad still drinks. It makes me cry just writting this. It hurts me so much because i know i cant leave my house. In so many ways i want to. I want to live with my cousin and her husband so bad. She always says, Meagan anytime you need me, come to my house. But honestly, do i just show up at her door and say,"i hate my parents, can i stay with you?" I know i'm depressed but how do i tell my mom that. When i do she either says(depending on what mood she's in) "Meagan, i'll get you a doctor who can help you or maybe alateen can. Or if she's in a bad mood, she'll say STOP OVER-REACTING TO EVERYTHING" Maybe i do over react but i'm a very sensitive girl. I need help. I need to get out of my house. If even for a week. I cant tlak to my guidance counselor because she's a shithead. My mom doesnt get it. Meghan absorbs what i say but i know, what can she say back?I completely understand that. Who else? There's no one and it's horrible.
help
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