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idk i guess ive given up on guys. dealing with all this bullshit with adam and shit and matt flipping out on me and telling me all this shit that adam susposibly said. then talking to adam and him saying he didnt say any of it and that matt was saying all of it and going on and on about shit. idk i guess ill just see what happens when i go back down to FL and move down there in november or the end of october. basically i cant move until i get done with my court stuffand i have 15 weeks of alcohol classes to take from my dui.and i wasnt even drivin my friend was and we got pulled over and i was way to drunk to know what was happening and to drunk to even know that he moved me from the passengers seat to the drivers seat so i got the dui. bad experience. and i havent drank in like a month so yeah basically thats a good thing now. i just want to get out of this state and actually move. actually i want to go back in time and change shit. make all the shit that happened not happen. so then i could actually move to Fl next month instead of Oct/nov. but ill have my liscense back. thats a good thing. so i can freaking drive down there with all my shit instead of my dad taking time off of work to bring me to FL. or not have to fly down there and mail all my stuff.
i just want to grad. so i can take all my classes i need for EMT and paramedic. get that done so i can have a job when i get to FL. instead of going down there and waiting to get a job. ehh.. but graduations not until june 17th and i get out of school on the 13th.. but i get to spend 3 days in wildwood, NJ with my senior class so thats somewhat of a good thing. idk
i think im begginning to think im bipolar to.. my parents dont make it better. i argue with my mom everysingle day like 5 times about shit that she pisses me off with. thats one thing why im moving so ican get away from her so idont have to sit home and argue with her about stupid shit. and then to get away from CT and everything thats happened and all the drama in this state. but im going to more drama with adam. dealing with him and stuff.
thats why im single cuz i cant deal with fighting with him over stupid things and pointless things. and all the guys that ive dated the same thing happens. not good. i just need a bf thats not gunna argue all the time with me and treat me like shit because thats all my exbfs did to me. ehh idk
i just want to grad. so i can take all my classes i need for EMT and paramedic. get that done so i can have a job when i get to FL. instead of going down there and waiting to get a job. ehh.. but graduations not until june 17th and i get out of school on the 13th.. but i get to spend 3 days in wildwood, NJ with my senior class so thats somewhat of a good thing. idk
i think im begginning to think im bipolar to.. my parents dont make it better. i argue with my mom everysingle day like 5 times about shit that she pisses me off with. thats one thing why im moving so ican get away from her so idont have to sit home and argue with her about stupid shit. and then to get away from CT and everything thats happened and all the drama in this state. but im going to more drama with adam. dealing with him and stuff.
thats why im single cuz i cant deal with fighting with him over stupid things and pointless things. and all the guys that ive dated the same thing happens. not good. i just need a bf thats not gunna argue all the time with me and treat me like shit because thats all my exbfs did to me. ehh idk