effin aeh.
hey ... so like usual i never update this thing ... i dunno probably just because i't not super interesting or anything, but i gues that's what keeps it honest most the time... anyways been super depressed today as i woke up late for a work event and that basically sent me crashing through the ground emotionally. broke down big time (which in itself depresses me).
i almost threw my computer off the balcony. i dont really like computers or electronics that much anymore. they cost a lot (internet/tv/cell phone bills ect.). so anyways i think ima ween myself off that an ween on to working out. i mean never hurts to have a healthy bod ... plus like maybe i tone up some then i'll be able to find an attractive lady to spend some time with. that'd be nice.
i mean i just got outta a relationship because it was stressful and i was sucking at life ... and now i'm single and bored. probably not the best reason to be in a relationship ... so i'll stick to swingin' as it's often called. it goes alright, but meh gets lonely none the less. hahaha i guess i'm just stuck in a really bad imbetween phase. oh well. i'm sure i'm not the only one.
so i been at work for almost two hours now ... been sitting in the break room for an hour now ... yeah it's stupid as shit ... the last hour has been all "girls gone wild" or "wild party girls" infomecials ... who the hell even buys that crap? why not down load it free? www.soulseek.com
i mean if you wanna see hot girls and not get a tease then go to bangbros.com ... it's like 800 times better even though it's got a monthly fee, but what the hell at least you see some vag. haha whatever sex is a fact of life. why be a prude? i'm over it. hrmmmm well what else ...
i have been thinking too much lately ... and i can tell you that's definately been adding ot my depression ... self analizing is about the worst thing you can do i think. they tell psychologists not to do it. i mean i'm no psychologist, but i know enough about it and think enough to destroy life and it's meaning. perspectives can be so twisted. nothing is only what it seems. kinda creepy thing to accept. whatever.
i almost threw my computer off the balcony. i dont really like computers or electronics that much anymore. they cost a lot (internet/tv/cell phone bills ect.). so anyways i think ima ween myself off that an ween on to working out. i mean never hurts to have a healthy bod ... plus like maybe i tone up some then i'll be able to find an attractive lady to spend some time with. that'd be nice.
i mean i just got outta a relationship because it was stressful and i was sucking at life ... and now i'm single and bored. probably not the best reason to be in a relationship ... so i'll stick to swingin' as it's often called. it goes alright, but meh gets lonely none the less. hahaha i guess i'm just stuck in a really bad imbetween phase. oh well. i'm sure i'm not the only one.
so i been at work for almost two hours now ... been sitting in the break room for an hour now ... yeah it's stupid as shit ... the last hour has been all "girls gone wild" or "wild party girls" infomecials ... who the hell even buys that crap? why not down load it free? www.soulseek.com
i mean if you wanna see hot girls and not get a tease then go to bangbros.com ... it's like 800 times better even though it's got a monthly fee, but what the hell at least you see some vag. haha whatever sex is a fact of life. why be a prude? i'm over it. hrmmmm well what else ...
i have been thinking too much lately ... and i can tell you that's definately been adding ot my depression ... self analizing is about the worst thing you can do i think. they tell psychologists not to do it. i mean i'm no psychologist, but i know enough about it and think enough to destroy life and it's meaning. perspectives can be so twisted. nothing is only what it seems. kinda creepy thing to accept. whatever.