laaa deee daaaaa!
well yeah so everything seems to be going ok. i put my two weekes notice in at one of my jobs so i could have more time to spend with the people i am going to miss as soon as they leave. that's good and bad. i like the job ok ... i jsut am feeling lazy lately. i think i's this new medicatioin i'm on. it's pretty sweet. zoloft ... like makes me pretty chill most the time. i dont really get anxiety from things or over think them so much. i mean it was really really a nice med the first couppla weeks i was on it because i was experiencing the "uphoria" stage of the medicine, in which i always jsut felt really really good all the time. i wish i could get back to that stage, but i dont think that's possible anymore. oh well. so other than that i met a girl that is really really exciting to me. i mean she's really really fun most all the time, and when she's not being super fun to hang out with and making my "smile so wide it stems off stage," then she's being pretty chill and mostly always talking about something that i wanna know about. it's great... really she's great, pretty, lots of good things. she says there's bad things about her, but then again we all have bad thigns about us. i think that's where the real good relationships are separated from the bad ones, and where the ones that will last are separated from the ones that fall apart over time. the division being dedication and flexibility to work through problems, differences, and flaws in eachother and commming together to enjoy eachother mutually. so that goes without saying that it's hard work ... well i didnt mean to get off on that tangent because i really havent even known her long enough to be able to say i for surely want to be in that position in her life yet... or that she wants to be that for me. reguardless ... she's moving away in awhile so i'm jsut gonna cherrish the time i can spend with her and try and find out as much as i can about her then hopefully some day our paths will cross again. if not then i'll just be able to smile on a good period in my life she helpped me to achieve. hopefully i'll be able to also smile with the knowledge that i helpped to enrich a period of her life with happiness as well. anyways ... so that's all going good. the air force is kinda sucking lately, but i know it's mostly my own fault, and that if i'd take it a little more seriously and put it frst in my life then it wouldent suck at all, but i definately probably will not do that. i'd rather jsut try and enjoy the ride of life with minimal effort. well that's the plan for right now at least. i'll probably start bustin my ass again in like 3 months and try to accomplish some stuff. school or otherwise. probably work on my interphone business. that'd probably be the smartest thing to do. oh well. we'll see. onnly time will tell. take care all.
-cooper.
-cooper.