[ Forgot to update last night.... Fwhee... o.O ]
Fucking hell this laptop is retarded! >.> I was just about to hit 'update journal' and this little flat moron here closed all my windows. So fuck you, laptop hun. +_X;
Uhh... Anyway.
I went to the West Herts College yesterday. Sheesh t'was hot! ... But then again, I was wearing all black; black collarshirt, the skull-and-crossbones skirt, the black tights that have ladders on both outer sides and my boots. >>; Well, when I got there, people outside on the grass just... stared. o.O; Great way to make me feel welcome and wanted. Psh.
Anyway, I soon found out why they stared; some idiot called me last week and told that college starts on thursday, 9th of September. NO, YOU EFFING MORON, that was the enrollment day for my group. It had actually started on monday, so I have now practically missed 4 full schooldays. Great.
I just realised I have NEVER in UK started my schoolyear on the right day. Year 9 I started 2 months later than everyone else. Year 10 and 11 I happened to be ill for the first week, both years. And 6th form, I had something else, because I cannot remember any of the first days at school... And now this. Fuck, tis great(!).
Anyway.... They took me to see my group (Art and Design, F.D.). That was freaky, everyone went silent when I walked in. Pffffft, feeling even more welcome. X____X; I hate people who stare too long and then start whispering with their friend(s). Well, Simon Chambers, who interviewed me, wasn't there so I saw one of his... uhh.... whatistheword... collagues. I think. He looked through my portfolio and asked me a few questions... And then said there was too much paperwork and hassle so he didn't give me any 5 week trials on the F.D. course to see if I'm worth the National Diploma.... He moved me straight up to Fine Art N.D. I was HAPPY. XD
Also, now I was introduced to the other group who'd be my group for 2 years. Fun. Uhh... Yeah. There are two Rachels, Caroline, Luke, Ben... Uhh.... 3 other I cannot effing remember. Ben is very extrovert. He came up to me, stared a while and just hugged me. O_O; Scary, but made me smile. ^^; These 2 years are gonna be gooooood. XD
... ... ... Now I've only got to learn my way around the effing huge school. Pfffffft.
Well. That was.... interesting. Not. I haven't done much, nope.
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You know those lines mean that I wanna say something serious, share my inner thoughts. But I don't know how to say it all.... Even if I should say them.
Sometimes I just think that.... I'm not ready for a relationship. I'm still scared stiff of them. I don't think I can cope in a long haul relationship at all, and it makes me feel...... like a bad person.
Blah. Shouldn't have said anything.
Rie x
There's a stranger in the mirror.
Uhh... Anyway.
I went to the West Herts College yesterday. Sheesh t'was hot! ... But then again, I was wearing all black; black collarshirt, the skull-and-crossbones skirt, the black tights that have ladders on both outer sides and my boots. >>; Well, when I got there, people outside on the grass just... stared. o.O; Great way to make me feel welcome and wanted. Psh.
Anyway, I soon found out why they stared; some idiot called me last week and told that college starts on thursday, 9th of September. NO, YOU EFFING MORON, that was the enrollment day for my group. It had actually started on monday, so I have now practically missed 4 full schooldays. Great.
I just realised I have NEVER in UK started my schoolyear on the right day. Year 9 I started 2 months later than everyone else. Year 10 and 11 I happened to be ill for the first week, both years. And 6th form, I had something else, because I cannot remember any of the first days at school... And now this. Fuck, tis great(!).
Anyway.... They took me to see my group (Art and Design, F.D.). That was freaky, everyone went silent when I walked in. Pffffft, feeling even more welcome. X____X; I hate people who stare too long and then start whispering with their friend(s). Well, Simon Chambers, who interviewed me, wasn't there so I saw one of his... uhh.... whatistheword... collagues. I think. He looked through my portfolio and asked me a few questions... And then said there was too much paperwork and hassle so he didn't give me any 5 week trials on the F.D. course to see if I'm worth the National Diploma.... He moved me straight up to Fine Art N.D. I was HAPPY. XD
Also, now I was introduced to the other group who'd be my group for 2 years. Fun. Uhh... Yeah. There are two Rachels, Caroline, Luke, Ben... Uhh.... 3 other I cannot effing remember. Ben is very extrovert. He came up to me, stared a while and just hugged me. O_O; Scary, but made me smile. ^^; These 2 years are gonna be gooooood. XD
... ... ... Now I've only got to learn my way around the effing huge school. Pfffffft.
Well. That was.... interesting. Not. I haven't done much, nope.
--- --- ---
You know those lines mean that I wanna say something serious, share my inner thoughts. But I don't know how to say it all.... Even if I should say them.
Sometimes I just think that.... I'm not ready for a relationship. I'm still scared stiff of them. I don't think I can cope in a long haul relationship at all, and it makes me feel...... like a bad person.
Blah. Shouldn't have said anything.
Rie x
There's a stranger in the mirror.