bad day
yeah.. so today sucked.
i woke up late.... my hair dryed funny last night... i didnt have time to fix it. my contacts wouldnt go in... so i wore my glasses.
then i got to school. and was late to first period... as usual. and about 15 minutes after i got there, i got called down to the office.
i was told to call my mother on her cell phone.. which i knew was bad.
my mom's been in minnesota for over a week now. her sister in law was diagnosed with luekemia a year ago. and last week she developed pnuemonia on top of it. the doctors were calling for her death within a week. so my mother and brother road tripped it out to minnesota to be with her during her last days. i was left behind because i'm the responsible one..... with graduation being so close i couldnt risk missing that many days... i couldnt call off work six days in a row... i have a cat and dog to take care of.. things of that nature.
so my mom and i discussed it and we decided it would be best for me to stay here and look after things.
so anyways, back to today... i called my mom and she answered the phone crying. my aunt passed away at 7:30 this morning. and to be honest, i didnt know her well. when i was younger i only saw her for two weeks of the year. when we would visit during the summer. but i havent seen her in at least five years.
i'm most upset about my cousins.. they're 12 and 14 years old. they just lost their mother, and ten years ago, lost their father. my mother's brother. so my cousins are now orphaned.. and will be moving in with their mother's sister carol. i can't imagine how i would feel if i was in their shoes. i'm going crazy with my mother being gone for over a week... to even think of her passing kills me.
my mom is one of my very best friends... and i miss her so much. i'm glad i'm not in my cousins shoes right now.. but god do i ever feel for them. i wish i could be with them right now. i was conisdering buying a plane ticket to fly out for the funeral. but i think that would be a bit irrisponsible... as much as i would love to see them, and love to be with them while they're hurting, i think leaving my responisibilities here would be wreckless of me. i just feel so left out and uncaring because i didnt go.
fuck. today sucked. but i have great friends<3 megan and sydnie made me cards and brought me flowers. i love my friends. i couldnt ask for a better support group<3
and if youre still reading.. thanks for listening.
i woke up late.... my hair dryed funny last night... i didnt have time to fix it. my contacts wouldnt go in... so i wore my glasses.
then i got to school. and was late to first period... as usual. and about 15 minutes after i got there, i got called down to the office.
i was told to call my mother on her cell phone.. which i knew was bad.
my mom's been in minnesota for over a week now. her sister in law was diagnosed with luekemia a year ago. and last week she developed pnuemonia on top of it. the doctors were calling for her death within a week. so my mother and brother road tripped it out to minnesota to be with her during her last days. i was left behind because i'm the responsible one..... with graduation being so close i couldnt risk missing that many days... i couldnt call off work six days in a row... i have a cat and dog to take care of.. things of that nature.
so my mom and i discussed it and we decided it would be best for me to stay here and look after things.
so anyways, back to today... i called my mom and she answered the phone crying. my aunt passed away at 7:30 this morning. and to be honest, i didnt know her well. when i was younger i only saw her for two weeks of the year. when we would visit during the summer. but i havent seen her in at least five years.
i'm most upset about my cousins.. they're 12 and 14 years old. they just lost their mother, and ten years ago, lost their father. my mother's brother. so my cousins are now orphaned.. and will be moving in with their mother's sister carol. i can't imagine how i would feel if i was in their shoes. i'm going crazy with my mother being gone for over a week... to even think of her passing kills me.
my mom is one of my very best friends... and i miss her so much. i'm glad i'm not in my cousins shoes right now.. but god do i ever feel for them. i wish i could be with them right now. i was conisdering buying a plane ticket to fly out for the funeral. but i think that would be a bit irrisponsible... as much as i would love to see them, and love to be with them while they're hurting, i think leaving my responisibilities here would be wreckless of me. i just feel so left out and uncaring because i didnt go.
fuck. today sucked. but i have great friends<3 megan and sydnie made me cards and brought me flowers. i love my friends. i couldnt ask for a better support group<3
and if youre still reading.. thanks for listening.