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its tooo thousaand siiix!
finally; time to get up outta here!
thinking back on two thousand five;
im happy, sad, dissappointed, thrilled... so many different things. i went thru so much shit last year and im happy its over but sad that some of it had to end;
i lived with my dad.
i got a stepmom [you suck casper].
i wasted time thinkin i had fell in love.
i got my heartbroken.
i made new friends.
i was livin la vida loca during the summer.
i almost got jumped [little& innocent as amiz? lol].
i transferred to wilson [the city is where its at!].
i got arrested.
i finally felt the im single feeling.
i fell in like [infatuation is adorable].
[&most importantly] i let go of all grudges i was holding.
im sure twoo thousand six with be great. i have graduation to look forward to and im cutting everyone off who had a negative impact on my life and doesnt show any care for really being a part of my life and having a positive influence on my life.
last night;
where to begin? well, ty came to pick me up like 11:30 then we went to anacostia station to get poi, ansche, and sasha who were already fucked up; im pissed cause i had serious catching up to do. we smoked... while we were driving out to capitol heights (mia! my phone wasnt turning on so i couldnt call you!) then we were at some apartment building where like three different apartments were having a party but we only went to one. i aint know where the fuck we were by the time we had finished smoking. everyone was drunk... imagine a room full of cute faggies and gay girls drunk dancing!?!? lmaaao. finally the party got started! i drank and drank... but you know me... the lightweight with a bunch of sexy old ppl; i tried to front like i was aight but i was really drunk and high as hell. these two faggies gave me a lap dance (!!!!) then this girl crystal joined in (no comment; omg). i danced with ty and two other girls but that was ENOUGH cause things were turning into a kinda nasty orgy. haha... yummy, right? no. we stayed til four then took poi home. it took her damn near fifteen minutes to get her key in the door. i got back home... but i dont know how i got upstairs until ty called me and told me we talked to my mom for a couple minutes in the front hallway then she carried me upstairs when my mom went to bed....?!? i guesss... i dont ever remember talking to my mom or going up the stairs piggy back style on ty back but... okee.
i woke up this afternoon... no hangover and no recollection of how i got in my bed. all my clothes were on and my hair... a mess. im not tired... just kinda cranky. talked to cee lo when i got u and took a shower. im so bored at home. im bout to go finish my college apps so i can go out this week... yes, bitches!! i dont have school til next monday soo...
tuesday.
zanzibar... part two
wednesday.
the edge
sooo... happy new year everyone and i hope everything is good.
miss jocy called me earlier. wanna know why? cause she's suprised... surprised that i been carrying lacey lately and im not gonna sit here and say i havent been but damn lacey, why the fuck you always makin me look like the bad guily bitch? you da one who lied, you da one who tried to get me jumped, you da one who cheated! haha oh i forgot something... how she gon tell shamika (after they kissed) that we werent together. then when i broke up wit her she said she aint know y i broke up wit her. lmao. got me fucked up. i mean... yes its weird that im cool with shamika but wtf, i have no reason to hate her to dislike her cause she didnt do a damn thing wrong!!! i cant help who lacey loves and shes made it clear who she loved from the get but i know im not gonna get caught up and create any uneccessary drama that can be easily avoided by me simply not givin a fuck about her ass. if she loved me the way she bitched about its all the time "i love you more than my family"... blah blah blah, she woulda done a whole lot different. i mean... right now im on some serious keyisha cole type shit; "i shouldve cheated, i just want it to be over, i changed my mind i dont love you no more.... all the good shit. i mean... this bitch fucking accused me of lying and not loving her every fucking chance she got but GUESS WHAT?? ...it was easy for her to do that ONLY because she was doin it everything she accused me of. right now ima be honest; i hate her with every inch of my fucking soul. im mad for shamika but im even more mad cause she had me goin for all her shit too. i mean... she cant sit up here and lie and say that i knew that her and shamika got back together because she told me that they broke up and never EVER said they got back together. to make matters even worse... this hoe lied about something that she swore up and fucking down that she had nothing to do with... my favorite part of last year (lol): when shamika came to blair. lacey fuckin said that she had no idea that shamika was at blair or anywhere around there... BUT NO... thats a big fat juicy lie; not only did she know that shamika was there-she told her to come, that i had been calling her everyday& THEN when i came outta the school she CALLED shamika and told her what i was wearing!! boo please, but I LIED? oh no-she got the game fucked up cause around the time shamika came up to blair, i WASNT (yeah you heard it... I WAS NOT) calling her ass; she was CALLING ME! ahhhh! im sooo pissed. im soooo pissed. i know i say im pissed but i just dont care at all anymore. she's not worth my time. i dont fuck with her. i mean... she say she was trying to make everyone happy but i didnt really want her til she started calling me and we started talking again. i didnt want her! ughhhh! im disgusted... yo, she was jai like fucking two people at the same time. disgusted, heard me? she said she was tryna make us both happy?? no, you're fucking selfish cause if she wanted everyone to be happy she'd left me alone so i could really start talking to other people.
anyway, i envy mika, well admiration is a better description of the feeling i have; for her ability to forgive and be so sweet and still be there cause... damn, im just so angry and that guy wasnt even my girl. its a new year and im not concerned with lacey or anything she says or does. i just wish her the best and all the happiness althought she doesnt deserve it, in my opinion. well, noo cause everyone deserves a second chance, right? haha or a third, or a fourth, or a fifth, or a sixth, or a seventh... haha, you get it right?
im gone to relax... do these damn applications, get on the phone, start some trouble. crisco was over here with aaron and geenie earlier. we watched four brothers then put toothpaste on crisco face cause he was sleepin like a fat nigga on the couch. lmao... ima put the pics up later if i feel like it. xoxo bitchesss!
finally; time to get up outta here!
thinking back on two thousand five;
im happy, sad, dissappointed, thrilled... so many different things. i went thru so much shit last year and im happy its over but sad that some of it had to end;
i lived with my dad.
i got a stepmom [you suck casper].
i wasted time thinkin i had fell in love.
i got my heartbroken.
i made new friends.
i was livin la vida loca during the summer.
i almost got jumped [little& innocent as amiz? lol].
i transferred to wilson [the city is where its at!].
i got arrested.
i finally felt the im single feeling.
i fell in like [infatuation is adorable].
[&most importantly] i let go of all grudges i was holding.
im sure twoo thousand six with be great. i have graduation to look forward to and im cutting everyone off who had a negative impact on my life and doesnt show any care for really being a part of my life and having a positive influence on my life.
last night;
where to begin? well, ty came to pick me up like 11:30 then we went to anacostia station to get poi, ansche, and sasha who were already fucked up; im pissed cause i had serious catching up to do. we smoked... while we were driving out to capitol heights (mia! my phone wasnt turning on so i couldnt call you!) then we were at some apartment building where like three different apartments were having a party but we only went to one. i aint know where the fuck we were by the time we had finished smoking. everyone was drunk... imagine a room full of cute faggies and gay girls drunk dancing!?!? lmaaao. finally the party got started! i drank and drank... but you know me... the lightweight with a bunch of sexy old ppl; i tried to front like i was aight but i was really drunk and high as hell. these two faggies gave me a lap dance (!!!!) then this girl crystal joined in (no comment; omg). i danced with ty and two other girls but that was ENOUGH cause things were turning into a kinda nasty orgy. haha... yummy, right? no. we stayed til four then took poi home. it took her damn near fifteen minutes to get her key in the door. i got back home... but i dont know how i got upstairs until ty called me and told me we talked to my mom for a couple minutes in the front hallway then she carried me upstairs when my mom went to bed....?!? i guesss... i dont ever remember talking to my mom or going up the stairs piggy back style on ty back but... okee.
i woke up this afternoon... no hangover and no recollection of how i got in my bed. all my clothes were on and my hair... a mess. im not tired... just kinda cranky. talked to cee lo when i got u and took a shower. im so bored at home. im bout to go finish my college apps so i can go out this week... yes, bitches!! i dont have school til next monday soo...
tuesday.
zanzibar... part two
wednesday.
the edge
sooo... happy new year everyone and i hope everything is good.
miss jocy called me earlier. wanna know why? cause she's suprised... surprised that i been carrying lacey lately and im not gonna sit here and say i havent been but damn lacey, why the fuck you always makin me look like the bad guily bitch? you da one who lied, you da one who tried to get me jumped, you da one who cheated! haha oh i forgot something... how she gon tell shamika (after they kissed) that we werent together. then when i broke up wit her she said she aint know y i broke up wit her. lmao. got me fucked up. i mean... yes its weird that im cool with shamika but wtf, i have no reason to hate her to dislike her cause she didnt do a damn thing wrong!!! i cant help who lacey loves and shes made it clear who she loved from the get but i know im not gonna get caught up and create any uneccessary drama that can be easily avoided by me simply not givin a fuck about her ass. if she loved me the way she bitched about its all the time "i love you more than my family"... blah blah blah, she woulda done a whole lot different. i mean... right now im on some serious keyisha cole type shit; "i shouldve cheated, i just want it to be over, i changed my mind i dont love you no more.... all the good shit. i mean... this bitch fucking accused me of lying and not loving her every fucking chance she got but GUESS WHAT?? ...it was easy for her to do that ONLY because she was doin it everything she accused me of. right now ima be honest; i hate her with every inch of my fucking soul. im mad for shamika but im even more mad cause she had me goin for all her shit too. i mean... she cant sit up here and lie and say that i knew that her and shamika got back together because she told me that they broke up and never EVER said they got back together. to make matters even worse... this hoe lied about something that she swore up and fucking down that she had nothing to do with... my favorite part of last year (lol): when shamika came to blair. lacey fuckin said that she had no idea that shamika was at blair or anywhere around there... BUT NO... thats a big fat juicy lie; not only did she know that shamika was there-she told her to come, that i had been calling her everyday& THEN when i came outta the school she CALLED shamika and told her what i was wearing!! boo please, but I LIED? oh no-she got the game fucked up cause around the time shamika came up to blair, i WASNT (yeah you heard it... I WAS NOT) calling her ass; she was CALLING ME! ahhhh! im sooo pissed. im soooo pissed. i know i say im pissed but i just dont care at all anymore. she's not worth my time. i dont fuck with her. i mean... she say she was trying to make everyone happy but i didnt really want her til she started calling me and we started talking again. i didnt want her! ughhhh! im disgusted... yo, she was jai like fucking two people at the same time. disgusted, heard me? she said she was tryna make us both happy?? no, you're fucking selfish cause if she wanted everyone to be happy she'd left me alone so i could really start talking to other people.
anyway, i envy mika, well admiration is a better description of the feeling i have; for her ability to forgive and be so sweet and still be there cause... damn, im just so angry and that guy wasnt even my girl. its a new year and im not concerned with lacey or anything she says or does. i just wish her the best and all the happiness althought she doesnt deserve it, in my opinion. well, noo cause everyone deserves a second chance, right? haha or a third, or a fourth, or a fifth, or a sixth, or a seventh... haha, you get it right?
im gone to relax... do these damn applications, get on the phone, start some trouble. crisco was over here with aaron and geenie earlier. we watched four brothers then put toothpaste on crisco face cause he was sleepin like a fat nigga on the couch. lmao... ima put the pics up later if i feel like it. xoxo bitchesss!