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DON'T READ THIS ENTRY IF YOU HATE EMOTIONAL PEOPLE
Im not sure what to even write, its monday. saturday was christmas eve, i went to peters' family's house and it was fun i guess..i got to play with my cousins and i got tons of gift cards, that was nice. then on sunday, christmas day, i went to shari house. we had fun, we watched the notebook and exchanged gifts. it was nice, but something felt werid, out of place. lately everything feels like its in the wrong spot, like everything should be happening but its all out of order. i don't really know, but i have been having really werid gut feelings lately and they scare the crap out of me. I feel like everything i do is wrong in some way and if i think long and hard about something and decied to do it, it ends up hurting someone. Im so sick and tired of it, people empty words and broken promises. Damn i sounds like one of those dashboard confessional songs. i know i just need to suck it up and get the fuck over it, but for all of you that really know me..im quiet the emotional girl. i just want something to work out and each day it seems more and more like its not going to happen, i guess it saddens me..but i'll get over it.
Lately i have also started getting those werid feelings about how short life is and i mean i can't EVER redo today..today is over and each second is just flying by and there is no time to live in regret. It just seems like i do, do that so much and it sucks so much. I feel like i could have done things better, but i couldn't have..b/c at the time i thougth that was the rigth thing to do..so it was and i can't change the way i think. i always give up my happiness for other people and don't get me wrong i don't mind doing it..but lately it just seems like some people just keep taking and never giving back.
Whatever, its life.. and the best way to put it is the quote from garden state= I know it hurts. But it's life, and it's real. And sometimes it fucking hurts, but it's life, and it's pretty much all we got. That is so true and i guess i just have to understand that.
I made a wish a few weeks ago on my birthday & im still waiting and hopeing
Im not sure what to even write, its monday. saturday was christmas eve, i went to peters' family's house and it was fun i guess..i got to play with my cousins and i got tons of gift cards, that was nice. then on sunday, christmas day, i went to shari house. we had fun, we watched the notebook and exchanged gifts. it was nice, but something felt werid, out of place. lately everything feels like its in the wrong spot, like everything should be happening but its all out of order. i don't really know, but i have been having really werid gut feelings lately and they scare the crap out of me. I feel like everything i do is wrong in some way and if i think long and hard about something and decied to do it, it ends up hurting someone. Im so sick and tired of it, people empty words and broken promises. Damn i sounds like one of those dashboard confessional songs. i know i just need to suck it up and get the fuck over it, but for all of you that really know me..im quiet the emotional girl. i just want something to work out and each day it seems more and more like its not going to happen, i guess it saddens me..but i'll get over it.
Lately i have also started getting those werid feelings about how short life is and i mean i can't EVER redo today..today is over and each second is just flying by and there is no time to live in regret. It just seems like i do, do that so much and it sucks so much. I feel like i could have done things better, but i couldn't have..b/c at the time i thougth that was the rigth thing to do..so it was and i can't change the way i think. i always give up my happiness for other people and don't get me wrong i don't mind doing it..but lately it just seems like some people just keep taking and never giving back.
Whatever, its life.. and the best way to put it is the quote from garden state= I know it hurts. But it's life, and it's real. And sometimes it fucking hurts, but it's life, and it's pretty much all we got. That is so true and i guess i just have to understand that.
I made a wish a few weeks ago on my birthday & im still waiting and hopeing