Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat
Oh boy everything is so confusing right now. I never reliezed how alike me and christina are, its really werid to talk to someone and relieze that you are basically in the same situation as them. Its crazy, but she puts a lot in perspective for me. I finally got out of a bad situation and it just keeps on haunting me, i have no idea what to do..i never wanted to hurt anyone, it just seems everything i do i ends up hurting someone. i always try to do the right thing, but trying to do the right thing always leads to do the completely wrong thing...thats life for you. i mean this whole situation let me relieze an important fact..."actions speak louder then words"..thats the best pharse and everyone should relieze it because it will save you from much frustating nights and second thoughts. whenever i feel like things are getting better, i always get let down and im so sick of it..i am so done of depending on people and thinking that people will pull throught for me because most of them won't..they wouldn't even come close and i need to take a minute to apologize to everyone who tried to warn me and i never listening...im really sorry guys. & thank you to everyone that has been there for me..which seems to be becoming a smaller list everyday. :-/ whatever i'll deal with it..woah this entry makes me seem like some emotional bitch..i won't denie it sometimes i can be...but right now isn't one of those times..im just really pissed off that people take me for a fool. so many people are trying to play head games with me and i wish that for their sake they would relieze that i know exactally whats going on..maybe it would save them some time. I really want to go up to them and they punch them in the face for taking me for such a fool..but im not going down to their level. i never ask for help, but i feel like if a person is truly my friend they will know exactally when i need help and provied the need helping even if i denie the fact that i need help at all.
right now i really need to thank shari, woah she is the most amazing girl you will ever meet..she has been there those long nights and crazy days when i had no idea what to do..she calmed me down and told me things would get better. thats really what i neeeded to hear..even thou in most cases things didn't get better..just hearing her say it at that moment made things better. i honsetly think she is my better half and if you mess with her you mess with me..i would die for her in an instant..she is the best kid out there..if you have a problem with that..fuck off.
also, special thanks to christina..i really can relate to her and its really nice having such a great friend there thats going throught the same amount of bullshit. she always listens to me, no matter what and she has a great way of making me smile even throught the pouring tears. she has the ability to cheer me up no matter what..she is one of the very few. i love you so much christina and im so sorry for draging you into my problems.
thank you joe for dealing with me at lunch when i just started crying and you had no idea what was going on. even though sometimes you can make me a little mad, you always come back and apologize and make it up to me. i love you and i have no idea what i would do without you..you also can always make me laugh..like when u were geting ur haircut and u were under the old ladies hair dryer..how cute ;) i love so much and no matter what im always here for you..no matter what.
charlie. oh gosh..what can i say about you kid..your amazing, you truly are soo awesome..im so happy i meet you and im so happy we became friends. we definatly have some great times like yesterday when we were a rice bowl and when you pet the reindeer. damn that was tons of fun. maybe sometime we will meet in boston market or taco bell.hahah ur great kid.
steph= fucking amazing work buddy, i love you girl && not matter what im always here for you
this stranger that goes by the name of jason.. well your awesome, quite amazingly awesome, im glad we started talking more..you are a special one..actually i shouldn't be talking. im glad you liked ur mushroom, i defiantly thought it was pretty sweet. p.s. i think shari's dog has a slight attraction to you hahah. i <3 you :)
thank you to everyone elsee that at this moment is slipping my mind & im sorrry u'll get a special mention in the continuation of this entry and i love all of you that actually give a crap about me :)
right now i really need to thank shari, woah she is the most amazing girl you will ever meet..she has been there those long nights and crazy days when i had no idea what to do..she calmed me down and told me things would get better. thats really what i neeeded to hear..even thou in most cases things didn't get better..just hearing her say it at that moment made things better. i honsetly think she is my better half and if you mess with her you mess with me..i would die for her in an instant..she is the best kid out there..if you have a problem with that..fuck off.
also, special thanks to christina..i really can relate to her and its really nice having such a great friend there thats going throught the same amount of bullshit. she always listens to me, no matter what and she has a great way of making me smile even throught the pouring tears. she has the ability to cheer me up no matter what..she is one of the very few. i love you so much christina and im so sorry for draging you into my problems.
thank you joe for dealing with me at lunch when i just started crying and you had no idea what was going on. even though sometimes you can make me a little mad, you always come back and apologize and make it up to me. i love you and i have no idea what i would do without you..you also can always make me laugh..like when u were geting ur haircut and u were under the old ladies hair dryer..how cute ;) i love so much and no matter what im always here for you..no matter what.
charlie. oh gosh..what can i say about you kid..your amazing, you truly are soo awesome..im so happy i meet you and im so happy we became friends. we definatly have some great times like yesterday when we were a rice bowl and when you pet the reindeer. damn that was tons of fun. maybe sometime we will meet in boston market or taco bell.hahah ur great kid.
steph= fucking amazing work buddy, i love you girl && not matter what im always here for you
this stranger that goes by the name of jason.. well your awesome, quite amazingly awesome, im glad we started talking more..you are a special one..actually i shouldn't be talking. im glad you liked ur mushroom, i defiantly thought it was pretty sweet. p.s. i think shari's dog has a slight attraction to you hahah. i <3 you :)
thank you to everyone elsee that at this moment is slipping my mind & im sorrry u'll get a special mention in the continuation of this entry and i love all of you that actually give a crap about me :)