Regrouping

Sep 04, 2007 11:20

Back in Lund. Tired, but doing alright.

I've started looking for work, been answering ads and asking around. I have absolutely no money, so my demands when it comes to jobs isn't exactly very high right now. Still, it might take a while before I find something, and until then it's nothing but bread and water on the menu.

Problem is, I'm feeling an incessant need to get out and loose myself in something, or someone. As to the someone I still have to work on lowering my standards, but even if I can't actually afford to go out I'm already set to work at a nation friday evening, so I'll at least get to enjoy the atmosphere as well as prevent myself from stagnating completely.

And from thinking.

Returning from Lund made some things resurface, or maybe not resurface but at least hit home in a way they hadn't done before. I've been so busy with working, traveling, socializing (drinking) it's not really until now that I'm not only accepting things on an intellectual plane, but actually feeling the consequences of them as well.

Oh well, I guess bottled up emotions have to be dealt with at some point or other and I might as well do it now when I don't have a job to screw up. It's going to take some discipline though to not keep looking up and down the streets as I walk or frequenting places where I know...

...and I've never been very good at discipline, at least not when it comes to myself.

work, emotions and shit

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