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my nana is very sick. she's been in the hospital for over a month. she has been on a ventilator for two weeks now, and can't breathe on her own. it's not real to me yet, but she'll probably die soon. today the doctors gave us two choices, she gets a tracheotomy and is on a ventilator for the rest of her life in a nursing home or we take out the ventilator and put her on morphine. the second one just means a comfortable death.
i hate this part of growing up.
my relationship with my nana is a little different than most peoples relationships with their grandparents. i live with my grandma(when i'm not in east lansing). so shes been more of a parent figure than a grandma really.
the other thing that's really fucked up, is that my mom has lived at my grandmas house ever since my parents got divorced. after my grandma dies, we're going to have to sell the house. my uncle is entitled to half of my nana's estate, which of course includes half the house. i just don't know what my mom is going to do.
saturday my other grandparents are coming in town, and i'm going home to spend some time with that side of the family. my plan was to bring jon to the bbq and then we were going up north with his family. it really sucks because i have no idea what's going to happen with my nana. i don't know if i can go up north because if she dies, i obviously want to be at the funeral, and then sitting shiva with the family is also in order.
i just want things to be like they were before. i don't want to have to worry about this stuff.
i love my nana, and if you're reading this please put her in your prayers.
i hate this part of growing up.
my relationship with my nana is a little different than most peoples relationships with their grandparents. i live with my grandma(when i'm not in east lansing). so shes been more of a parent figure than a grandma really.
the other thing that's really fucked up, is that my mom has lived at my grandmas house ever since my parents got divorced. after my grandma dies, we're going to have to sell the house. my uncle is entitled to half of my nana's estate, which of course includes half the house. i just don't know what my mom is going to do.
saturday my other grandparents are coming in town, and i'm going home to spend some time with that side of the family. my plan was to bring jon to the bbq and then we were going up north with his family. it really sucks because i have no idea what's going to happen with my nana. i don't know if i can go up north because if she dies, i obviously want to be at the funeral, and then sitting shiva with the family is also in order.
i just want things to be like they were before. i don't want to have to worry about this stuff.
i love my nana, and if you're reading this please put her in your prayers.