whirlwind
I don’t think I have ever had a day so filled with emotion. I cried more today than I have in a total of 3 months. And both reasons couldn’t be farther from one another.
A friend of mine is battling anorexia for the second time. The first time she dropped to 93 pounds and scared the daylights out of me. Now, it’s on that course again but it seems worse. I can’t handle this again. it kills me inside to see her like this. My heart literally aches. It makes me physically sick to watch her leave the table. I tired to stop her and she wrenched her arm away from me. That’s when I got up and left in tears. I can’t go through this again. I don’t know what to do. I love her to death and I can’t watch her kill herself in front of me. I’m so lost on how to handle this…but I wont let her end up like the last time. No chance in hell. She is wasting away. She can’t even drink apple juice without throwing it up. It fu*king kills me.
And on a completely different end of the spectrum-I’m in love. The End. :) I’ll be gone for 2 weeks, so miss me ok? -Jess-
A friend of mine is battling anorexia for the second time. The first time she dropped to 93 pounds and scared the daylights out of me. Now, it’s on that course again but it seems worse. I can’t handle this again. it kills me inside to see her like this. My heart literally aches. It makes me physically sick to watch her leave the table. I tired to stop her and she wrenched her arm away from me. That’s when I got up and left in tears. I can’t go through this again. I don’t know what to do. I love her to death and I can’t watch her kill herself in front of me. I’m so lost on how to handle this…but I wont let her end up like the last time. No chance in hell. She is wasting away. She can’t even drink apple juice without throwing it up. It fu*king kills me.
And on a completely different end of the spectrum-I’m in love. The End. :) I’ll be gone for 2 weeks, so miss me ok? -Jess-