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Dec 20, 2007 02:19

I haven't posted on here in a long time but feel the need for some reason tonight towards a specific person who will know this if they actually read it.  But considering this is really the only way I can communicate because they have felt the need to completely cut me out of their life and pretend that they haven't done so and deny to my face that they have, I will resort to this.
Yes, I joined a sorority and yes, I worked at abercrombie and fitch. I must be a horrible ripped pants greek letter oh my goding bitch. I conformed to exactly everything that is evil because I mean if you are in a sorority and you work at abercrombie then you can't be anything less than evil, fake, and not a good person. But in all actuality, I am not any of those things nor have I changed in a bad way from these choices I have made for myself. I shouldn't have had to justify my actions to you because they made me happy and you were my "friend" and should have respected them.
Joining a sorority has been one of the most beneficial choices I have made in my life. I made tons of friends (and no I did not buy their friendship with dues. If you knew anything about greek life you would know that all dues are are for paying for things in advance. Like when we have our semi-formal. But no I am just buying their friendship...) But anyways I have made friends who have been there for me more in the past year that you were ever truly there for me. They laugh, cry, get angry, and everything with me. We have fun together. We also do a lot of charity work which I like to do, it makes me feel good. We set up a survivor tent every october at Race for the Cure in VA beach where we spend time with survivors, help them with things, and give them support. We escort them in a parade in front of everyone so that people can see how strong they are and how important they are as they impact our lives. Do you know how much of an honor it is to do that? Do you know how much of an honor it is to help people and share and grow from the experiences they share with us? I am honored to be apart of an organization that sets out to help a cause that could possibly affect me, my family, friends, strangers, etc. So fuck you for judging me because I wear greek letters across my chest. Those letters mean something to me...they mean sisterhood, history, charity, and so much more. If you can't understand how great of an experience this is for me then you are not my friend, you never were. I didn't join a sorority because i thought it would make me cool, accepted, popular, or any of that. I joined it because I wanted friends who were always there for me, to have more of a purpose in college than going to classes, to help people, and so much more. I'm sorry you can't understand that.
As for Abercrombie, it's a fucking job get over it. I hated it but it gave me money. I needed money and they offered me a job, they worked with my schedule, and they were supportive when i needed to take off or call out. You don't find many jobs like that. Did I start popping my collar and wearing ripped jeans and talking down to people? No, because I'm not a fucking asshole. As for me talking about matching clothes, I have always been like that you were just looking for fucking excuses to hate me. I have always been superficial when it comes to people matching and presenting themselves in an appropriate way. But i have plenty of friends who do not look nor dress like me, and i may not like what they are wearing, but i don't judge them based on that.
I think you need to look inside yourself and realize that all the things you judged me on are really how you are. You judge people based on how they look, whether they listen to music you like, if they are living a life you approve of, and so much more. You are a stereotype as well, only you fall into a different category. You talk down to people and make them feel bad because they aren't doing things the way you want to do them. You are destructive to yourself, your relationships, and your life. I never judged you and hated you when you made decisions I didn't like. I respected them and you because they were your decisions. Go ahead and talk shit about me for saying all of this I don't care. There is a reason we haven't talked in forever or hung out. You think it's your decision and that you "replaced me" but you didn't. I allowed you to leave my life because your not worth being in my life. You deserve to be in my past because you were a horrible friend and a negative person in my life. I don't need that. I hope you realize that you need to change yourself and not me. It's pathetic that you weren't grown up enough to tell me what you thought to my face and deny there was an issue and that I had to resort to a fucking internet blog to tell you how I feel.
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