Wishing i wasnt alive

[_i_let_go_]

so you know how theres some things you just dont want to talk about and how that they just cant get off your mind well i have one of those and james told me like yesterday that eriks mad at me .. so i guess i feel like a bitch in that sence but i have so much on my mind and its like almost to the point where i just wish i could die im sped up again just being myself and i am getting exactly what i want but i just cant seem to undestand why i feel so horrable i mean i honestly think im the worst person alive its just like imcomprehendable and i just need my friends right now so bad and i mean ive been making mistakes repeatitivly and its just to the point where i dont even think i should be cared for and this so sounds like a pitty call but dont pitty me im not worth it i just wish i could feel immortal and its like i dont even know where to start its just another short period of depression and i want it over i hate this i just cant express it i could just die right now.. god. i miss my friends.. i miss having friends.. o god i cant.. fuck bye

Eyes now open i see
a deep hole inside of me
why did you do this
why dont you see
that everything we were
was apart of me
you took me away
Im left here
so lonley
kill me off
let me die
because its better then just being
alone incomplete alive