Quota?
Hello to you.
I'm feeling pretty down this evening. I'm starting to really believe that I'm not as important to some people as I thought I was. I feel so expendable. If I could die and still be able to witness those who actually shed a tear, I would. Trust is such a huge issue for me. I don't share my thoughts as openly as some. I make sure you actually want to listen before I spill the beans. But apparently some of you have fooled me.
Or maybe you do care, but aren't aware that you don't show it. I'm not asking for petty comments on my hair or how I dress. I just want to be recognized. I want someone to say they missed me or tell me something about themselves they don't tell everyone. I haven't experienced that in so long.
I'm so tired of some of you thinking I'm ignorant. I'm so tired of some of you thinking my thoughts and ideas don't make any sense on a troubling moment you are having.... Only to find out that my idea worked out in the end, but you took it as credit for your own.
I just want to be recognized for something other than the fact that sometimes I get boligerantly crazy...
Maybe I'm over analyzing... But I can't even tell that... Fuck it... I guess not getting any reponse to this journal entry will only prove what I previously said...
The girl category is still crap. Either I attract the ones I'm not interested in, I get attracted to the ones who aren't interested in me or there is a connection, but neither person wants to do anything about it... Look, if any of you actually feel that way about me, just come out and say it. Its better than climbing an invisible ladder... and who knows, maybe we'll have something...
Later.
I'm feeling pretty down this evening. I'm starting to really believe that I'm not as important to some people as I thought I was. I feel so expendable. If I could die and still be able to witness those who actually shed a tear, I would. Trust is such a huge issue for me. I don't share my thoughts as openly as some. I make sure you actually want to listen before I spill the beans. But apparently some of you have fooled me.
Or maybe you do care, but aren't aware that you don't show it. I'm not asking for petty comments on my hair or how I dress. I just want to be recognized. I want someone to say they missed me or tell me something about themselves they don't tell everyone. I haven't experienced that in so long.
I'm so tired of some of you thinking I'm ignorant. I'm so tired of some of you thinking my thoughts and ideas don't make any sense on a troubling moment you are having.... Only to find out that my idea worked out in the end, but you took it as credit for your own.
I just want to be recognized for something other than the fact that sometimes I get boligerantly crazy...
Maybe I'm over analyzing... But I can't even tell that... Fuck it... I guess not getting any reponse to this journal entry will only prove what I previously said...
The girl category is still crap. Either I attract the ones I'm not interested in, I get attracted to the ones who aren't interested in me or there is a connection, but neither person wants to do anything about it... Look, if any of you actually feel that way about me, just come out and say it. Its better than climbing an invisible ladder... and who knows, maybe we'll have something...
Later.