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well, i'm finally gettin a little bit better about updating this thing.
which is good.
really good.
it's going to be good for me to start saying things i need to say again. && seems how i know that only like 2 people ever really read this, then i don't really have to worry about what i say. that's good too.
that's why i can't do the whole blog thing on myspace. it might be personal, but it just can't get too personal, cuz i know too many people will see it.
sometimes i hate joel for making me get a freakin myspace in the first place. i could've done without that little addiction. but, oh well...too late now.
i just need to figure out how to start putting how i feel into words again. i haven't done it in so long, i'm not really sure i remember how to do it.
i haven't even really written a poem since freshmen year, with an exception of like 5.
i was a slightly healthier person back then, i think.
I'm definately going to try and be that girl again. maybe not completely, because i don't want to have those friends anymore. they obviously didn't really care about me, or i'd still talk to them. right?
I used to do nothing more than wish that some of those girls would still talk to me, and be my friends again, but i finally see how pointless that would be. we've all got so many differences, and different views on some things that i don't really see any of us ever being that close ever again.
I'm just glad to have some of the friends that i do have. the few that i've gained or have stuck with me for quite some time. those are the ones to be thankful for having. but there's a kinda new one or two that's kinda gettin on my nerves, i just dunno how to tell them..haha* i think she kinda gets it tho...she hasn't been calling near as much.
i hate to say that. but i just need a break from that person for a while. i mean, lord.
and sam understands why i think that about the person, so i mean...other people would too...if i explained it.
i just don't feel like it.
which is good.
really good.
it's going to be good for me to start saying things i need to say again. && seems how i know that only like 2 people ever really read this, then i don't really have to worry about what i say. that's good too.
that's why i can't do the whole blog thing on myspace. it might be personal, but it just can't get too personal, cuz i know too many people will see it.
sometimes i hate joel for making me get a freakin myspace in the first place. i could've done without that little addiction. but, oh well...too late now.
i just need to figure out how to start putting how i feel into words again. i haven't done it in so long, i'm not really sure i remember how to do it.
i haven't even really written a poem since freshmen year, with an exception of like 5.
i was a slightly healthier person back then, i think.
I'm definately going to try and be that girl again. maybe not completely, because i don't want to have those friends anymore. they obviously didn't really care about me, or i'd still talk to them. right?
I used to do nothing more than wish that some of those girls would still talk to me, and be my friends again, but i finally see how pointless that would be. we've all got so many differences, and different views on some things that i don't really see any of us ever being that close ever again.
I'm just glad to have some of the friends that i do have. the few that i've gained or have stuck with me for quite some time. those are the ones to be thankful for having. but there's a kinda new one or two that's kinda gettin on my nerves, i just dunno how to tell them..haha* i think she kinda gets it tho...she hasn't been calling near as much.
i hate to say that. but i just need a break from that person for a while. i mean, lord.
and sam understands why i think that about the person, so i mean...other people would too...if i explained it.
i just don't feel like it.