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Okay, so my lj background isn't working, but I think I've figured out why...
ya'll just have to give me time to get it fixed though... It's complicated, and I don't know if it's really what I think it is thats causing it...
anyways... I told Jessica Holmes that I was gonna update about this, cuz she got me to thinkin about it*
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ya'll just have to give me time to get it fixed though... It's complicated, and I don't know if it's really what I think it is thats causing it...
anyways... I told Jessica Holmes that I was gonna update about this, cuz she got me to thinkin about it*
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This whole thing was NOT directed at you at all* You should have known that...I mean, sure you don't talk to me alot at school, but you DO talk to me, and I understand why you don't during lunch...I get it...& you call me and all that good stuff and we talk and you've even come over. No this isn't about you...it's about how everyone in general has changed throughout this year...and me...It's about me*
I know that I don't have a horrible life, and that I have is like a million times better than most people...I know that.
but that's just as far as it goes...the family and some friends...but I'm not very happy with the way my life is...I mean, not with the friends or family...other things...i dunno. I can't really explain it that well.
& Karla, hunny.No people haven't said anything to me about it...lately.
But people have said and done it before...and just thinkin back makes it bad. they did it in early elementary school and in public...people that have never even met me before--and I guess the fact that some people can judge so quickly doesn't help with all my doubts and uncertainties. I know that you love me, and I love you too* so, please don't ever think something like that....i mean... if i'm mad or upset sith you about anything...i'll tell you, cuz I know we can work it out...but in this case there's nothing to talk out cuz I'm not mad, and I'm sry that it pisses you off that I feel this way...but i can't help it. and it's not something I've just recently started feeling...i've felt it my entire life...
No, I'm not retarded...but Doodle wasn't either...I mean not really. He could talk and have conversations and he didn't sound that retarded to me..just physically challenged not mentally challenged, maybe i'm the only one that got that out of it? I dunno...
You have nothing at all to be sorry for...and I'm sorry i made you think you did...it's nothing that's happened recentally that's brought on all these feelings about myself...this is just me letting them loose because I'm tired of keeping EVERYTHING so bottled up! I love you*
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