this sucks...
i dont usually write in here bc i dont feel like i have much to write ab and when i do its whining and complaining but...thats what a journal is for and if you hate it you can scroll right by it...
but like..i feel like crap. i love eric so much and he doesnt even know it and i try to remind by like calling him as often as i think he might be around...and sometimes its like 4 times a day, and i don't have a cell so it's hard as it is...and then since i called so much he ends up calling me only like once and then i feel gay bc like..i'm lame bc i just keep calling and calling...so then today i was out with justin getting lost for like hours and just chillen bc i didnt want to get worked up bc we were lost...and i didnt think to call eric from justins cell since i never even saw his cell to like jog my memory...so i didn't call..and when i got home he called like twice at like 330 and 5 something and i missed them and when i called back he wasn't in the mood to talk. and it wasn't even like he was being reallyreally mean but like...idk i guess i just worked up easily...just bc it's eric...and i hate so bad to have him even a little upset with me...and i wanna call him but i know he doesn't want to talk bc he already told me but like...i just wanna talk to him...
this post is gay. sorry. i just have to put it somewhere.
but like..i feel like crap. i love eric so much and he doesnt even know it and i try to remind by like calling him as often as i think he might be around...and sometimes its like 4 times a day, and i don't have a cell so it's hard as it is...and then since i called so much he ends up calling me only like once and then i feel gay bc like..i'm lame bc i just keep calling and calling...so then today i was out with justin getting lost for like hours and just chillen bc i didnt want to get worked up bc we were lost...and i didnt think to call eric from justins cell since i never even saw his cell to like jog my memory...so i didn't call..and when i got home he called like twice at like 330 and 5 something and i missed them and when i called back he wasn't in the mood to talk. and it wasn't even like he was being reallyreally mean but like...idk i guess i just worked up easily...just bc it's eric...and i hate so bad to have him even a little upset with me...and i wanna call him but i know he doesn't want to talk bc he already told me but like...i just wanna talk to him...
this post is gay. sorry. i just have to put it somewhere.