happy again.
i'm not in school any more, but i got a job at vans. i'm just seasonal for right now but i'm working my ass off and doing a little brown nosing in hopes i'll be able to stick around. my main manager, prisilla or whatever, and she really gets on my fucking nerves. she talks to me like i'm a fucking idiot and will repeat instructions to me over and over. everyone else that works there seems alright. this one chick asked me today if i smoked weed, "fuck yeah" i said. i guess her and the other girl made a bet on whether i did or not. then later before closing the same girl asked me if i wanted to buy cocaine from her. i told her it's been a while and i would ask around my circle of friends. i thought that was kind of a weird question to ask and i was sketched out about it.
i got rid of adam, for good this time. to be completely honest, i haven't been this happy in so long. i told him to stop calling me and to get the fuck out of my life. he asked for my friendship but i refused, he's nothing to me now but a lying sack of shit that will never be able to change, not even for himself. i'm so fucking done and over with that. i feel really silly for sticking with that for so long. the only thing i can do is take it as a learning experience and move on. i also snapped out of the feelings i had for my indecisive military friend. i guess it doesn't matter if i say his name or not but i'd rather just leave you guys hanging.
i met a wonderful boy named aaron, a capricorn that fell from heaven. i can tell this world has done him wrong as well. he only speaks when he has something to say, and the silence between us isn't uncomfortable. actually it's quite the opposite, it's as if nothing needs to be said. i haven't known him for that long, and i wish i would have met him sooner. but i figure if we did meet earlier than he would of known me at a really shitty time in my life. so on second thought, i suppose the timing couldn't be any better. aaron is the type of person that makes me feel almost proud of myself for being capable of winning their affections.
i got to see leftover crack and citizen fish. it was at skrappy's, which really fucken sucks but it was an amazing show none the less. the new speakers sound even shittier than the old speakers. i hear that they're closing down if they can't find another location. which kind of sucks, skrappys holds a lot of good memories. i also got to see the vandals. the opening band had one guy in it, the first two songs were alright until he got into the 20 minute guitar solo. the second band was some bullshit pop punk from san diego. whatever, props to them for getting the balls to get up on stage. finally the vandals played all their christmas song and a few others. i got to go with aaron and bounce around in the front with his arms around me. i guess you would consider that our first date? even though we both payed our way in.
i feel like i'm moving on to the next "chapter" in my life or whatever the fuck you want to call it. i guess this entry is full of cliches but it's been a long day and my writers block has been getting to me lately.
christmas is coming up really soon, and just so everyone knows, no one is getting their present until january or febuary, when i have the money. and who knows maybe everything will be on sale.
being twenty years old is kind of shitty. twenty one just dangling like a carrot in your face, well more like a self purchased handle of jack. i recall my 18 birthday. cathy and i waited for midnight to come around so i could purchase my first pack of smokes, she even recorded it on my video camera from my truck.
so i guess i've just been keeping busy lately and trying to keep a level head despite all the weed i smoke. but before i tie things up in this entry, i'd like to say that i'm upset that the pick of destiny did so bad in the theatres. i thought it was so fucking funny, but i guess it's a refined sense of humor? and it's shitty because i never got to see it in the theatres with cathy.
i got rid of adam, for good this time. to be completely honest, i haven't been this happy in so long. i told him to stop calling me and to get the fuck out of my life. he asked for my friendship but i refused, he's nothing to me now but a lying sack of shit that will never be able to change, not even for himself. i'm so fucking done and over with that. i feel really silly for sticking with that for so long. the only thing i can do is take it as a learning experience and move on. i also snapped out of the feelings i had for my indecisive military friend. i guess it doesn't matter if i say his name or not but i'd rather just leave you guys hanging.
i met a wonderful boy named aaron, a capricorn that fell from heaven. i can tell this world has done him wrong as well. he only speaks when he has something to say, and the silence between us isn't uncomfortable. actually it's quite the opposite, it's as if nothing needs to be said. i haven't known him for that long, and i wish i would have met him sooner. but i figure if we did meet earlier than he would of known me at a really shitty time in my life. so on second thought, i suppose the timing couldn't be any better. aaron is the type of person that makes me feel almost proud of myself for being capable of winning their affections.
i got to see leftover crack and citizen fish. it was at skrappy's, which really fucken sucks but it was an amazing show none the less. the new speakers sound even shittier than the old speakers. i hear that they're closing down if they can't find another location. which kind of sucks, skrappys holds a lot of good memories. i also got to see the vandals. the opening band had one guy in it, the first two songs were alright until he got into the 20 minute guitar solo. the second band was some bullshit pop punk from san diego. whatever, props to them for getting the balls to get up on stage. finally the vandals played all their christmas song and a few others. i got to go with aaron and bounce around in the front with his arms around me. i guess you would consider that our first date? even though we both payed our way in.
i feel like i'm moving on to the next "chapter" in my life or whatever the fuck you want to call it. i guess this entry is full of cliches but it's been a long day and my writers block has been getting to me lately.
christmas is coming up really soon, and just so everyone knows, no one is getting their present until january or febuary, when i have the money. and who knows maybe everything will be on sale.
being twenty years old is kind of shitty. twenty one just dangling like a carrot in your face, well more like a self purchased handle of jack. i recall my 18 birthday. cathy and i waited for midnight to come around so i could purchase my first pack of smokes, she even recorded it on my video camera from my truck.
so i guess i've just been keeping busy lately and trying to keep a level head despite all the weed i smoke. but before i tie things up in this entry, i'd like to say that i'm upset that the pick of destiny did so bad in the theatres. i thought it was so fucking funny, but i guess it's a refined sense of humor? and it's shitty because i never got to see it in the theatres with cathy.