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I'm sitting on the steps of the Denton courthouse at this very moment, procrastinating, avoiding a 6-10 page research paper on Freud, and the relation A Rose for Emily has to some of his theories, etc. etc. Bah. It's really funny really, that this weekend has come to a close. It started late THursday night and has been going strong since. I can't imagine a better time. For one, I'm absolutely in love with this boy named Collin and it became rather apparent to me while I was with someone else. But I didn't end that relationship in a haste when I found my feelings strongly waining, instead I chose to be selfish and enjoy the feeling of not being alone. Rather horrid of me, no? But my long absences didn't go unnoticed, so I made the best of said situation and ended it promply before things got worse. I didn't out right lie when I told him I wouldn't be around and that I was entering into a new phase in my life, but I chose to strategically omit that I was in love with someone else. Funny, because I'm typing this knowing that he'll soon find out and probably hate me for all eternity, but whatever. There is no way to describe a situation without making me look like a horrible person, and I've come to face that fact. It'll pass. And now that I've gone off on a tangent, back to my weekend. This weekend involved excessive amounts of alcohol, singing and the occasional awkward glance. Thursday night around 11 or so, my good friend Nicole and I invited Collin and a few of his friends out for my newly found addiction --other than cigarettes, coffee, at this amazing little coffeehouse that I could spend my entire life in. So we enjoyed coffee and well Collin and his friends being excessively drunk thanks strongly to a large amount of sake. The decision was made to head back over to Collin's brother's house and do a bit of drinking and a large amount of talking. It was beyond nice having intellectual conversation with him, I can't even express how deeply my feelings for this boy go..and I have to end this rather quickly because I'm being attacked by a sprinkler.