Jan 26, 2013 13:20
...I worry that he hasn't changed, the more I realize...I don't need to change for HIM. If he hasn't changed enough - if he still expects me to be his motive force, still sleeps away the years, still complains without action, still needs someone to "fix," well then...I'll move on.
I am a strong, independent woman, fully capable of going it (HAPPILY) alone. I love him, and I believe my life will be brighter with him by my side, but if he doesn't magnify the joy, well then...he needs to go forth and make his own.
Is this cruel? This seems cruel. But...honesty often is.
C: You've changed in so many loving ways, but...in others I see no change at all. I need to know that you'll do more then sleep when I'm away. I need to know that being turned down for one job won't dissuade you from applying for the next. I need to know that more than memes and video games occupies your days. I need to know that your mind is growing. I need our minds to grow together.
I need to know that you are complete without me.
I love you. But if we don't make each other Better People, we shouldn't be Together.