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Suck it up Jaclyn Ann.
You miss him.. yes... you miss laying on your floor with him watching tv. You missed his family today. You miss holding his hand. You miss kissing him. You miss watching him walk. You missed going to the Dragons game today. You wanted to turn to see him in the stands this afternoon. You miss having someone to talk to everynight. You miss looking at his picture. You miss calling him. You miss texting him. You simply miss him. (go on... just get it out)... You miss the little things. You miss hearing about warcraft. You hate seeing his myspace change. You hate seeing pictures of him with other people. You hate not hearing those stories and not knowing what he's doing. You hate thinking of him with anyone else. You hate not being the one on his arm. You're hating being alone.
are you fucking done yet?
Listen. Remember all the SHIT. Remember how you would have gotten shit today because you couldn't go to the game. Remember how he would have been on your case if you didn't talk to him for 5 minutes. Remember how he held you BACK. Remember your dreams. Remember your dream guy that will do all the above but will be WITH you. Will BRING YOU UP. Will WANT TO BE BY YOUR SIDE.
He's coming. don't fucking loose hope after not even a week. How pathetic. You're ready to give up ON YOURSELF and talk to him/call him/ say you miss him. How FUCKING DARE YOU JACLYN ANN.
Listen. It takes time. Everything good always takes time. Remember how long you waited for 1221, for 13, for 18? Remember how good those felt? Remember all those feelings. Remember what it feels like to REALLY be loved. NOt loved in that he loves that you're "perfect." But he wants to KNOW. He WANTS to support. He WANTS to be there. He WANTS to show you that you ARE perfect.
Come on now Jac... are you ready to give up/? I hope you're saying no. Agree with yourself damnit-- no. NO no NO NO NO.
Listen... you're going to the concert tomorrow-- probably something that you wouldn't have done if you still had him PULLING YOU DOWN. You have the concert with Danielle. The concert with your parents. The cultural events (which, remember to bring money tomorrow). Going to the city. PARTYING WITH LAX. Lax in general.
Like lauren just said-- take steps forward.
This is your life. Your dreams. Your goals.
Live them.
Live for yourself. NOT FOR THE NEXT FUCKING GUY TO COME ALONG. He'll come along-- and you won't have to live for him either. you'll still live for YOU. remember that...
stay strong babe.
You'll be okay.
Dont worry.
You'll be okay.
Goodnight never never land.
You miss him.. yes... you miss laying on your floor with him watching tv. You missed his family today. You miss holding his hand. You miss kissing him. You miss watching him walk. You missed going to the Dragons game today. You wanted to turn to see him in the stands this afternoon. You miss having someone to talk to everynight. You miss looking at his picture. You miss calling him. You miss texting him. You simply miss him. (go on... just get it out)... You miss the little things. You miss hearing about warcraft. You hate seeing his myspace change. You hate seeing pictures of him with other people. You hate not hearing those stories and not knowing what he's doing. You hate thinking of him with anyone else. You hate not being the one on his arm. You're hating being alone.
are you fucking done yet?
Listen. Remember all the SHIT. Remember how you would have gotten shit today because you couldn't go to the game. Remember how he would have been on your case if you didn't talk to him for 5 minutes. Remember how he held you BACK. Remember your dreams. Remember your dream guy that will do all the above but will be WITH you. Will BRING YOU UP. Will WANT TO BE BY YOUR SIDE.
He's coming. don't fucking loose hope after not even a week. How pathetic. You're ready to give up ON YOURSELF and talk to him/call him/ say you miss him. How FUCKING DARE YOU JACLYN ANN.
Listen. It takes time. Everything good always takes time. Remember how long you waited for 1221, for 13, for 18? Remember how good those felt? Remember all those feelings. Remember what it feels like to REALLY be loved. NOt loved in that he loves that you're "perfect." But he wants to KNOW. He WANTS to support. He WANTS to be there. He WANTS to show you that you ARE perfect.
Come on now Jac... are you ready to give up/? I hope you're saying no. Agree with yourself damnit-- no. NO no NO NO NO.
Listen... you're going to the concert tomorrow-- probably something that you wouldn't have done if you still had him PULLING YOU DOWN. You have the concert with Danielle. The concert with your parents. The cultural events (which, remember to bring money tomorrow). Going to the city. PARTYING WITH LAX. Lax in general.
Like lauren just said-- take steps forward.
This is your life. Your dreams. Your goals.
Live them.
Live for yourself. NOT FOR THE NEXT FUCKING GUY TO COME ALONG. He'll come along-- and you won't have to live for him either. you'll still live for YOU. remember that...
stay strong babe.
You'll be okay.
Dont worry.
You'll be okay.
Goodnight never never land.