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Where do i go from here?
I'm attempting to find a sense of clarity--- i dont know who to talk to... my mom is going to be biased, my brother doesn't say much, lauren will be biased... and idk who else is there.
I've had enough. He is like talking to a little child.
I love him. so much. more than anything. and i've pictured my life with him all the time. But i know that that is going to take sacrifices... but i think i am sacrificing all of my individuality from the start. I've already thought about all that i have missed--- all the things that i wanted to do and didn't because i knew either a- he'd get mad that i'd want to do it or b- i'd hear repercussions of it for weeks.
and this has been the same thing for a very long time. i've complained to him about it on numerous occasions and this was the reason why i broke up with him over the summer.
i can't talk to him and i can't be who i am with him.
this is a terrible situation to be in.
I love him... always.
sigh.
I'm attempting to find a sense of clarity--- i dont know who to talk to... my mom is going to be biased, my brother doesn't say much, lauren will be biased... and idk who else is there.
I've had enough. He is like talking to a little child.
I love him. so much. more than anything. and i've pictured my life with him all the time. But i know that that is going to take sacrifices... but i think i am sacrificing all of my individuality from the start. I've already thought about all that i have missed--- all the things that i wanted to do and didn't because i knew either a- he'd get mad that i'd want to do it or b- i'd hear repercussions of it for weeks.
and this has been the same thing for a very long time. i've complained to him about it on numerous occasions and this was the reason why i broke up with him over the summer.
i can't talk to him and i can't be who i am with him.
this is a terrible situation to be in.
I love him... always.
sigh.