sit back. slowly close your eyelids as you crack a smile- pictures&memories replay and you think...
so yeah, i'm really tired right now but i've been on this kick where i write everynight and i feel rather satisfied that i do, so i'm going to keep it up for a while...
well now today- i woke up this morning and went to school to help out santana. i freakin adore that guy. i love how i can come talk to him so freaking upset/stressed out/crazed about something... sit and talk and listen to him... and then suddenly know that everything will be fine- i'm calm- i'm collected-- i couldn't be better. its amazing and i freakin love him for the way he affects me and how great he is. but yeah we actually got shit done today- its was freakin hot in there but we made the best of it.. i got to make a new psych binder-- freakin crazy to look back and realize that i still remember most of it... some of it brought back memories... ha i talk like it was so long ago. so yeah i sat there all day and then went home around 230 ish. he showed me the screen play he's working on.. the movie is sick. he's definitely talented in like writing stories/movies of that sort because iw as amazed of how his mind works.... i can't wait to like see it published and be like yeah.. i saw that in the making... haha... but yeah we got to talk about school well, college, and he made me feel 100 times better... made me think logicaly and reason it out with msyelf so that it will, at one point, be easier to logic with my mom. man oh man was i grateful that i said something to him that i wasupset about it.... good stuff..
so afterward i came home and aunt lynora and aunt michelle and marissa and victor were over- go to hang out with them for a while. afterwards, i dont know why, but i was riDICKuously tired and just went to sleep until around 6:30ish when ma woke me up to check my e-bay bid. i won the tickets for jonthan. wound up paying over 60 dollars less than what i would have paid for seats that i really wanted. i'm so excited to give them to him-- it was a present (along with the statue to complete our set) that i came up with on my own and wasn't stupid and will really be worthwhile and fun..... thats always exciting to think of something good
soccer is in a week.
oh god.
thats sick.
so yeah after i waited to win the bet- i went with jon to the mall. i really had a rather good time just going to the mall. we went to a couple stores and i looked around for some things i need to get-- i din't get anything but i got a better idea of what i'm going to get-- i have a feeling i'm going to be at the mall a lot this week.... on the way home him and i talked about colleges-- i had wanted to bring the subject up to him but shyed off on it... somehow it was brought up in our conversation on the way home and he's 100% behind me in anything i do. he actually WANTs me to go away. and he even offered to help me with tuition if i really need it. i dont think i'll need it because i'll take out loans and then pay them back- but it was really great to hear that from him... he said to me... you have the brains and the athletics to go wherever you want to go... dont stay home because you're afraid of hurting ma's feelings or because of what anyone tells you for that matter--- do what you want...
it was really great to hear it from hmi and i had a really good night hanging out with him and then eatting dinner with him... it was fun...
tomorrow is tuesday.
which means christian comes home tomorrow.
i literally cannot wait... it may be just me in this but i feel like we're starting new and fresh again and i'm rather excited. i'm open to whatever happens--- whether what we choose works or doesnt-- i'm open and optimistic. i'm excited to go to dinner and to see him and talk to him again and hear about italy. its been rough being without him all together and i don't like it.. lol... so we'll see how that goes...
okay song of tonight. i thought of making it bsb again but i realized that this song is more appropriate... or at least theres one other i was thinking of but i chose this over it... it's Jack Johnson's "better together" (i've found a new, STRONG, love for Jack Johnson and his music<3 lol acoustic rocks)
"There is no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
And no song that I could sing, but I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving
Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here and where do we go
And how come it's so hard
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing
It's always better when we're together
Mmm, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together
And all of these moments just might find a way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings
Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see
That they'll be gone too, too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now
Yeah, it's always better when we're together
Mmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together (mmm)
I believe in memories, they look so, so pretty when I sleep
And when I wake up, you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're better together
"
----Jack Johnson
by the way... 11 days til the cruise and michelle's birthday--- sioooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited!!
alright playas and cats.
time for this chica to head to sleep- i'm DEAD tired since like 8pm lol.. night
goodnight never never land.
well now today- i woke up this morning and went to school to help out santana. i freakin adore that guy. i love how i can come talk to him so freaking upset/stressed out/crazed about something... sit and talk and listen to him... and then suddenly know that everything will be fine- i'm calm- i'm collected-- i couldn't be better. its amazing and i freakin love him for the way he affects me and how great he is. but yeah we actually got shit done today- its was freakin hot in there but we made the best of it.. i got to make a new psych binder-- freakin crazy to look back and realize that i still remember most of it... some of it brought back memories... ha i talk like it was so long ago. so yeah i sat there all day and then went home around 230 ish. he showed me the screen play he's working on.. the movie is sick. he's definitely talented in like writing stories/movies of that sort because iw as amazed of how his mind works.... i can't wait to like see it published and be like yeah.. i saw that in the making... haha... but yeah we got to talk about school well, college, and he made me feel 100 times better... made me think logicaly and reason it out with msyelf so that it will, at one point, be easier to logic with my mom. man oh man was i grateful that i said something to him that i wasupset about it.... good stuff..
so afterward i came home and aunt lynora and aunt michelle and marissa and victor were over- go to hang out with them for a while. afterwards, i dont know why, but i was riDICKuously tired and just went to sleep until around 6:30ish when ma woke me up to check my e-bay bid. i won the tickets for jonthan. wound up paying over 60 dollars less than what i would have paid for seats that i really wanted. i'm so excited to give them to him-- it was a present (along with the statue to complete our set) that i came up with on my own and wasn't stupid and will really be worthwhile and fun..... thats always exciting to think of something good
soccer is in a week.
oh god.
thats sick.
so yeah after i waited to win the bet- i went with jon to the mall. i really had a rather good time just going to the mall. we went to a couple stores and i looked around for some things i need to get-- i din't get anything but i got a better idea of what i'm going to get-- i have a feeling i'm going to be at the mall a lot this week.... on the way home him and i talked about colleges-- i had wanted to bring the subject up to him but shyed off on it... somehow it was brought up in our conversation on the way home and he's 100% behind me in anything i do. he actually WANTs me to go away. and he even offered to help me with tuition if i really need it. i dont think i'll need it because i'll take out loans and then pay them back- but it was really great to hear that from him... he said to me... you have the brains and the athletics to go wherever you want to go... dont stay home because you're afraid of hurting ma's feelings or because of what anyone tells you for that matter--- do what you want...
it was really great to hear it from hmi and i had a really good night hanging out with him and then eatting dinner with him... it was fun...
tomorrow is tuesday.
which means christian comes home tomorrow.
i literally cannot wait... it may be just me in this but i feel like we're starting new and fresh again and i'm rather excited. i'm open to whatever happens--- whether what we choose works or doesnt-- i'm open and optimistic. i'm excited to go to dinner and to see him and talk to him again and hear about italy. its been rough being without him all together and i don't like it.. lol... so we'll see how that goes...
okay song of tonight. i thought of making it bsb again but i realized that this song is more appropriate... or at least theres one other i was thinking of but i chose this over it... it's Jack Johnson's "better together" (i've found a new, STRONG, love for Jack Johnson and his music<3 lol acoustic rocks)
"There is no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
And no song that I could sing, but I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia tone loving
Love is the answer
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here and where do we go
And how come it's so hard
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing
It's always better when we're together
Mmm, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together
And all of these moments just might find a way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they'll be gone when the morning light sings
Or brings new things for tomorrow night you see
That they'll be gone too, too many things I have to do
But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now
Yeah, it's always better when we're together
Mmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together (mmm)
I believe in memories, they look so, so pretty when I sleep
And when I wake up, you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time
And there is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing
We're better together
"
----Jack Johnson
by the way... 11 days til the cruise and michelle's birthday--- sioooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited!!
alright playas and cats.
time for this chica to head to sleep- i'm DEAD tired since like 8pm lol.. night
goodnight never never land.