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there are only like three times when i don't feel lonely while i'm up here at school. it feels like this emotion or whatever has found its way into every nook and cranny that was my life. i'm way less confident than i used to be and i'm not really sure why. maybe its cause i feel like i confide in people and they don't confide in me. and i can't say i don't have friends cause i do. and sometimes i feel on top of the world, but then that feeling is combatted by the creeping sense that i know it won't last. after this moment, i am back on the back burner baby. maybe i;m just not in the right place for me.
it sucks cause i feel really shitty, but i don't feel like i can talk to one of the people whose perspective matters most to me. i feel like a burden. i'm getting frustrated with how i don't feel able to believe what is said.
it sucks cause i feel really shitty, but i don't feel like i can talk to one of the people whose perspective matters most to me. i feel like a burden. i'm getting frustrated with how i don't feel able to believe what is said.