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I don't fucking care if you all die. Whatever, man. Isnot my fucking fault that Voldedyman picked ME of all fucking wizards around heree... shoulda picked someone else, you bloody wanker!@ because i can't make any of this stop. the castle fucking sucks and asshole is in my head and he wont' stop pounding and he wants in and hermione says to keep fighting but i don't want to fight i just want to give ina nd sleep.
can't even leave my goddamn rooms. i hear all of you talking when i walk through - all lies and bullshit. not a pretty boy little hero - just fucking four-eyed haunted harry. but now i only have two! broke em against the wall. it didn't stop but it the pain was different so that's something. i said i wouldn't do this again but HOW THE FUCK ELSE do you make it go away?
it doesn't go away, that's right. fucking here forever in my head and it HURTS screws and needles in my eye and i'm holding a broken knife and an empty cheap bottle of vodka. stashed it away in case of emergency and this is it because i'm not leaving this place. my place. 'way from all of you. even here i fucking hear all your dirty whispers and i know you're FUCKING LAUGHING, and i know that you're going to be sorry - you're all gonna die. voldey's taking over and i cant' stop it because i tried to fix my glasses but it wouldn't work. i shook my wand at it forever and it just never made a damn sparkle. why won't my magic work?
he thinks its brilliant. he's leeching the life from me right now but i'll make sure i get me first if it comes down to it. voldemort is laughing and it hurts it fucking burns GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD!
STOP. STOP. STOP IT. FUCKING STOPITSTOPITSTOPITSTOPITSTOPITSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPITSTOPITSTOPIT.
can't even leave my goddamn rooms. i hear all of you talking when i walk through - all lies and bullshit. not a pretty boy little hero - just fucking four-eyed haunted harry. but now i only have two! broke em against the wall. it didn't stop but it the pain was different so that's something. i said i wouldn't do this again but HOW THE FUCK ELSE do you make it go away?
it doesn't go away, that's right. fucking here forever in my head and it HURTS screws and needles in my eye and i'm holding a broken knife and an empty cheap bottle of vodka. stashed it away in case of emergency and this is it because i'm not leaving this place. my place. 'way from all of you. even here i fucking hear all your dirty whispers and i know you're FUCKING LAUGHING, and i know that you're going to be sorry - you're all gonna die. voldey's taking over and i cant' stop it because i tried to fix my glasses but it wouldn't work. i shook my wand at it forever and it just never made a damn sparkle. why won't my magic work?
he thinks its brilliant. he's leeching the life from me right now but i'll make sure i get me first if it comes down to it. voldemort is laughing and it hurts it fucking burns GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HEAD!
STOP. STOP. STOP IT. FUCKING STOPITSTOPITSTOPITSTOPITSTOPITSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPSTOPITSTOPITSTOPIT.