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my head aches from this consistant longing to not be in the place that i am in. a busy work schedule usually distracts me from everything going on in my life, but lately my brain is completely clouded over. i'm quiet and not talkative and distant. most days i don't like being around most people. i'd rather be under a blanket watching countless hours of BBC america. three hours to be exact. my brain feels dead from lack of schooling. i haven't been a real student in a now very real amount of time. two years. i forget what essays and term papers and exams are. there is this side of me that wants to be challenged again. like my education will almost erase itself, no matter how trivial the knowledge might be, if i don't pursue anything. if i don't talk it's not because i have nothing to say, it's because i don't know how to say it. i just feel pretty dull and uninspired lately. the only thing keeping me going is the prospect of a clean slate in 6 weeks.