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I can't wait for school to be over, but at the same time, I really don't want to go home. I mean...I really don't want to go home. I think I've grown up some over the course of this year...at least, I've had more experiences this year than I ever have before. Sometimes I wish my mom was alive so that I could talk to her about all of it. A lot of other girls can talk to their moms about things.
I know that Cathy can't...I guess that's why we make such a good pair. I'm motherless and she might as well be. We can talk to each other, but when it comes down to it, our advice is only based on assumptions. At least if I had a mother, she could tell me that some day I won't have to worry about any of this stupid stuff and that I'll get married and my OWL scores won't really matter.
Speaking of Cathy, I'm really worried about her. She's been really down lately, especially after we got into a fight a week or so ago. We've never fought like that before...I know that she's still upset about Nicky, even after everything that's happened in the last few weeks. I feel really bad for her. When Quentin and I broke up, I had wished that I had the problem of two boys liking me at once...but after how everything's been going for her, wishing something like that was pretty idiotic of me.
I know that she just wants to make everyone almost everyone happy...I just don't know why it is she can't. She gets stuck on things like Claire and Zacharias. I guess the reason I'm worried is mostly just because right now, Cathy is the most deflated I've seen her since...well, I don't think I've ever seen her like this. I was going to say since Tracey made fun of her, but she wasn't even this low then.
All I want to do right now is find someplace perfectly tranquil and read. I haven't done enough of that lately. It's almost as though every time I make time to read and be alone, something happens to distract me. Whether it's Euan begging me to listen to something new he learned on the guitar, or Cathy looking to be entertained because she's bored out of her mind, or Colin asking me a million questions about something I know nothing about -- it's all irrelevant and really distracting. And it's making me a bit frustrated that I can't just read. I guess I like to because it takes me out of this dismal place and gives me something to pour all of my focus and concentration into, even if it's only for whatever length of time I'm reading.
I just went off on a really large tangent and lost my train of thought. I hate it when that happens.
Oh, right, I remember. Everyone here is largely self-obsessed and insensitive and -- UGH. I HATE BOYS.
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I'm feeling a bit bold today. If not stir-crazy.
I think I'll go swimming.
Oh, and by the way. I'm becoming asexual.
[Filter: Cathy Miles]
Would you go swimming with me? Please? I know that Claire will probably be there and I know how much you hate her, but you don't have to talk to her or anything. Please, Cathy?
Don't make me go expose myself alone.
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Jeanette
I can't wait for school to be over, but at the same time, I really don't want to go home. I mean...I really don't want to go home. I think I've grown up some over the course of this year...at least, I've had more experiences this year than I ever have before. Sometimes I wish my mom was alive so that I could talk to her about all of it. A lot of other girls can talk to their moms about things.
I know that Cathy can't...I guess that's why we make such a good pair. I'm motherless and she might as well be. We can talk to each other, but when it comes down to it, our advice is only based on assumptions. At least if I had a mother, she could tell me that some day I won't have to worry about any of this stupid stuff and that I'll get married and my OWL scores won't really matter.
Speaking of Cathy, I'm really worried about her. She's been really down lately, especially after we got into a fight a week or so ago. We've never fought like that before...I know that she's still upset about Nicky, even after everything that's happened in the last few weeks. I feel really bad for her. When Quentin and I broke up, I had wished that I had the problem of two boys liking me at once...but after how everything's been going for her, wishing something like that was pretty idiotic of me.
I know that she just wants to make everyone almost everyone happy...I just don't know why it is she can't. She gets stuck on things like Claire and Zacharias. I guess the reason I'm worried is mostly just because right now, Cathy is the most deflated I've seen her since...well, I don't think I've ever seen her like this. I was going to say since Tracey made fun of her, but she wasn't even this low then.
All I want to do right now is find someplace perfectly tranquil and read. I haven't done enough of that lately. It's almost as though every time I make time to read and be alone, something happens to distract me. Whether it's Euan begging me to listen to something new he learned on the guitar, or Cathy looking to be entertained because she's bored out of her mind, or Colin asking me a million questions about something I know nothing about -- it's all irrelevant and really distracting. And it's making me a bit frustrated that I can't just read. I guess I like to because it takes me out of this dismal place and gives me something to pour all of my focus and concentration into, even if it's only for whatever length of time I'm reading.
I just went off on a really large tangent and lost my train of thought. I hate it when that happens.
Oh, right, I remember. Everyone here is largely self-obsessed and insensitive and -- UGH. I HATE BOYS.
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I'm feeling a bit bold today. If not stir-crazy.
I think I'll go swimming.
Oh, and by the way. I'm becoming asexual.
[Filter: Cathy Miles]
Would you go swimming with me? Please? I know that Claire will probably be there and I know how much you hate her, but you don't have to talk to her or anything. Please, Cathy?
Don't make me go expose myself alone.
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Jeanette