This is going to be a long one...
Okay so this w/e was fun.
Friday night- Work, then Allie and i went and hung out untill we got Haley. Saw Landon for a bit ( he was being an ass, b/c i wasnt with HIM) THen we met up with Haley at her house. Then went and ate at Wendy's WE got Hungry for the GruB. SO then we went back to her house and didnt get in till 12:30 so we diddnt go to bed until 3.
Saturday- i had to work.. from 9-4. Then i went home and got ready.. WEnt and saw landon for a moment. He got mad b/c i wasnt with him. Then i met Evan, Cody, Mark, Brandon and some others up at Winn-Dixie. Watched Them act like Idiots b.c they were drunk. tHen i took Mark home.. yea he wasnt all there..(were you markyy?)haha mArk was touching my hear and swirling his fingers. lmao. haha, it was actually pretty funny. THat was my night.
Today is mothers day hope everyone's days are incredible.
♥
Okay so i need to get a few things off of my chest :
Okay so there is this boy.. BoB (name has been changed.lol) WEll he is nice and all. He is a very likeable boy. HE is a wee bit controlling, but nice. THen there is this other boy //. Joe. (name changed) He is the greatest to be around. It's nothing but fun times... and goofing off. I just have SO much fun with him. I thought the only way i though of him was a really good FRiend. Which i still only think of him that way. but other times i look at him.. and wonder if i should "be" with him. IT is so confusing. My only problem is Joe is mad b/c im dating Bob. He says (to his friends) that he is just looking out for me, and he doesnt want to see me get hurt. and that Bob will hurt me and the only thing bob wants is one thing. A friend of mine and Joes told me last night that joe cared a LOT about me and thats the reason he is acting the way he is. But i just dont understand it. I wish he would just talk to me about it. I really want his friendship back. i MisS him so much, you know just going out and having fun doing stupid stuff.
Im scared that if Bob and i become a "close and exclusive couple" i will miss Highschool, b/c i will be with him and i wont be able to have fun and just hang out and do stupid stuff with my friends.. b/c i will be with bob the whole time. Bob just doesnt understand that i AM still in highschool and i DO have other friends.
You know .... i tell you this from expierence.. "Be careful what you wish for" .. b/c for a while i wished so hard, for an older guy who would treat me right who i could be with all the time and just be a close and exclusive couple with. well.. i didnt realize what i was passing up and missing out on while i was wishing for this. What i really wanted was right under my nose. ANd now that i have finally realized this .. it hurts me. IT hurts to know that my Bestfriend wont talk to me anymore.. It hurts to hear how his friends say he feels.. and last but not least it hurts to not be able to be with him, and have fun any more all b/.c of a stupid wish that came true..
So you say.. "well what are you going to do"
And i say.. " i have NO IDEA!"
I wish he would just discuss this with me.
i guess thats to much to ask for... <3