this grain of salt....
recent events in my life have led me to believe that I'm not as together as I tried to make myself believe. I'm sorry things had to end like they did, maybe my reasons were vague, but they were genuine. I had some of the best times in my life and I'm sorry you didn't. I'm sorry it had to end like that.
those things I always say I want to do but never do, that changes now. the fact that I haven't lived my own life in the way I want to live also changes. I'm pretty much at rock bottom and I know I put myself here. as cliched as it sounds, the only way to go is up. its the only way I can let myself go.
I'm not allowing comments because I don't feel like dealing with the typical I hate you's or meaningless comments telling me to feel better or whatever else goes along with entries like this. if you have something to say do it in person.
those things I always say I want to do but never do, that changes now. the fact that I haven't lived my own life in the way I want to live also changes. I'm pretty much at rock bottom and I know I put myself here. as cliched as it sounds, the only way to go is up. its the only way I can let myself go.
I'm not allowing comments because I don't feel like dealing with the typical I hate you's or meaningless comments telling me to feel better or whatever else goes along with entries like this. if you have something to say do it in person.