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I'm in the most pathetic mood ever...
I feel astronomically rejected and insecure right now and unless something just as astronomically different happens tomorrow I don't see it changing within the next 24 hours. I had so much planned for today and not a fuckin thing got done.
I need to not feel like I'm not good enough for people sometimes. I know in my head its not true but I'm still so insecure about it. constantly asking if I did something right, or if someone is happy with something I did. I just feel like I should go away somewhere until I can come back and somehow be better at everything.
ps... I've motivated myself enough to finally completely overhaul this thing. its been 2+ years in the making but I can all but guarantee that tomorrow I'll be happy with the way this looks and if I'm not I'll probably just delete it.
**2 hours later**
so I changed the colors around, and I'm adding a backround but I have a key problem I need the image to be hosted somewhere first, so yeah it'll probably get done tomorrow
I feel astronomically rejected and insecure right now and unless something just as astronomically different happens tomorrow I don't see it changing within the next 24 hours. I had so much planned for today and not a fuckin thing got done.
I need to not feel like I'm not good enough for people sometimes. I know in my head its not true but I'm still so insecure about it. constantly asking if I did something right, or if someone is happy with something I did. I just feel like I should go away somewhere until I can come back and somehow be better at everything.
ps... I've motivated myself enough to finally completely overhaul this thing. its been 2+ years in the making but I can all but guarantee that tomorrow I'll be happy with the way this looks and if I'm not I'll probably just delete it.
**2 hours later**
so I changed the colors around, and I'm adding a backround but I have a key problem I need the image to be hosted somewhere first, so yeah it'll probably get done tomorrow