It's always raining in my head...

Jan 23, 2014 21:34

I know I haven't posted on here in awhile and I'm sorry. I've been caught up in the moment and been trying to make sure all the ends meet the way we want. At the same time I haven't had much to say because I've been telling you pretty much anything and everything when I call or message or w/e.

However, I can see you are having serious issues with sleep and it's really starting to hurt me. It's something like: you always seem upset going to bed, then you have issues falling asleep and I feel bad because I can't do much (right now) to help. From what I can tell it's a combination of things like worry and sleep schedule issues and things like that; and I have a feeling it's mostly my fault. x.x

I'm sorry baby. I am doing my best I can to try and get you back your happiness in all the ways I can. Whether it's try talk with you and help you with things when I have free time, to the simple things like finding you new cute kitties and cool tattoos. I'm kinda reaching my limit on what I know/can do. I'm tired of you being upset, I'm tired of not being able to help/fix it; I'm tired of the restless nights and the manic depression that soon follows. I'm just getting tired...

We just have to hold on for a bit longer (through this distance and crap) until I'm back there. I mean... we are ALMOST at the finish line to a new beginning and I feel like I'm still so far away (and drifting farther). I can only imagine what you must be going through. So just bare with me, try to do what you can to keep moving on. Go out with Doug every week to do something, get Kortlan's ass away from that hoe and take him to eat or come play games; do whatever it takes but just try and keep moving on. Otherwise we'll reach the finishline but the race will already be over. Neither of us want that... x.x

I love you my mew mew baby.

race, hold on loosely, talk, metaphore, distance, sad, tattoos, tired, kitties, busy, manic depression

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